Today's Heartache

2010-06-22T21:20:00.000-07:00

I guess this is goodbye.

300th post

2010-03-01T03:04:00.000-08:00

Yeah,CTs are over,Yeah i did pretty well
26/30 for physics,
15/30 for chem,
17/30 for POA (considering so little ppl pass)
so far,tmr get back history,SS on thurs,End of the week get back eng,Then DnT doing awesome,thinking new ideas,finished design considerations.
But i still feel so damn empty inside. Without you girl.

Valentine's Day

2010-02-12T21:02:00.000-08:00

I have lost the battle but war has just begun.
And to be alone on a valentine's day,is not as bad as it all seems,
After all,we have friends.

Welcome To The Black Parade

2010-01-27T05:08:00.001-08:00

Let's Join The Black Parade =)

Confused

2010-01-23T06:50:00.000-08:00

I think i like you.
But i'm not sure.
Should i take a chance?
Or leave it be.
I'm confused.

DELPHIAN IS BACK DAMNIT.

2010-01-10T03:48:00.000-08:00

Well,nth much these first week of school,got caught for hair,colour and length,got sent to cut before coming back,then same same,managed to understand chem,poa,lost during MT and maths,and moving along at SS,history and eng. So yeah. Mostly went to slack after these few tough crappy days of sch,then trips to sp and ngee ann ended early for me,zk and yj went to camp blah blah. Same old sch. But on a bright note,delphian is back to the bluez after nearly 2-3months so pwned. Delphian FTW.

New Perspective

2009-12-31T10:53:00.000-08:00

Happy 2010 and a new begining! Nth to post just find it so nice to have 1 jan 2010 as the title. Lame i know. This year started off ok,got horrible in the middle,bucked up awhile after that,Sucked terribly then finished off the year awesome. Hardly makes sense i know. But yeah. Woot.

Baby you know that,maybe it's time for miracles.

2009-12-30T08:03:00.000-08:00

God it's days like these that make me miss you so much.
Just another day i guess,went out swimming with kf,yx kb today,yy came later then swam swam swam while mok sat there doing maths. Seriously,he paid to go in,sit down and do maths. Then ate KFC my one and only sad meal of the day then went off with beng go boon lay shopping centre alter my pants cos kinda big,now i wondering whether will get caught anot.Awesome. While altering try dota 1v1 with beng,my dwarven sniper cena first blood by him then just went my tower zhuang him then i assasinate..the time ran out. Like wtf? didn't even see if he died anot,i think not but just getting my hopes up.
Tmr going countdown with him going dota again before that. Round and round and still it carries on.

2009-12-28T09:38:00.000-08:00

So freaking bored. Tmr going watch Chipmunks 2 with yan and mok,then thurs night going countdown,This year was fast,this year i learned quite alot,overall this year SUCKED ASS. Im gonna make sure next year is better. I swear it.

Cheers for 2010. Drink away the memories,forget the heartaches and just keep moving forward,one step at a time,after if i don't,she just keeps moving further and further away.

2009-12-24T09:09:00.000-08:00

Woots. Thanks to everyone who wished me happy happy birthday. Spent most of the day in church today,Met with yj at jp got scammed for 5bucks then met daniel,kaiyi,kaibing and can't rmb who then went to eat KFC with yj first. Dragged zk come down then ate,walked around and around,off to church. Met some of dan's church friends i guess. Unfortunately i forgot almost all of their names before the thing ended. Onli can rmb 2 names. CLOUD,rmbed cos was thinking like damn cool name. MICHELLE,cos she sitting next to me then jiaowei with her and yj showing his almost fail trick. Then can't rmb liao.
After the performance finish bout 6+7 cabbed to tiong bahru cos rushing to meet reservations for the restaurant. Ate,did the usual stuff then homed liao.
All in all it was an awesome day. Tho 4-5months back if you asked me how i wanted to celebrate my birthday it would have been an completely diff answer,but still,going today has got some stuff i've been thinking bout out of the way so yeah. *peace sign*
UPDATE:Zk and me have decided to go city harvest there every sunday starting from next year the first week. How awesome is that?

2009-12-22T07:25:00.000-08:00

Today was..Tiring. Got woken up by zk's phone call again. like damn standard one,if going out that day,sure get called earlier. Then went off to jp to find. zk yx and ze. almost didn't want to go cos waiting for the bus damn long then halfway one fucking fat indian auntie sat beside me then talked on the phone like damn loud in some language that gives me a fucking headache listening to then some old couple sat on the other side at the bus stop there then discussed something in cantonese. Nb. So just ren then sit there tiam tiam. Reach lerh,walked,go eat KFC jiao wei awhile. walked somemore. bought my simpsons and spongebob socks with some other stuff,saw kaiyi clebin they all,walked somemore. Then bused home. Still havn't buy my pencil case and the damn JJ cd. Can't believe zk bought it alrdy. Tmr no piano class. nth to do liao.
BORING.

2009-12-18T04:24:00.000-08:00

Bored. Watching penguins of madagascar. Nice show lol. Damn sian. Got woken up then met zk yesterday at IMM slack walk around see carebear damn fucking stupid. Then went jp buy our bags,he owe me 90bucks,now broke like shit go out damn dificult with onli bout 30-40. wtf. Then sit at mrt there wait for yx come that time damn funny,but damn lazy say. Come liao go his grandma hse there eat dinner again. Then homed. So sian today he going malaysia liao. BORING.

2009-12-16T10:21:00.000-08:00

Well,life carries on =D
Piano exam coming lerh,damn sian. Feel like taking up violin but giving up all the years of piano damn fucking waste plus learning two instruments at once damn hard. So yeah. Hmm..went turf city to eat ayat seafood on my grandma's birthday,those "delicacies" that cost too much and nobody really likes? i got alot of it that day =.= Especially fucking geoduck which looks like a god damned Dick. Sucks too. onli nice thin i think was the peking duck the skin then got some wrap with it then put the sauce fucking nice. but go so far for that,boh hwa. Damn sian next fri on christmas going malacca dunno do what fuck. at least currency lesser also like genting can anyhow spend abit. Buy more crap back again. Then 24th my birthday again =.= any year closer to dying. yay.

The simpsonsssssssss~

2009-12-14T10:15:00.000-08:00

I think now always heart to heart with zk at those funny time make me even more emo. then balance mah,hor? Stupid tired now. Cos before the fucking long day today he decided to play all the emo song hear til we emo til i cannot sleep. like wtf? So today
went jp find him first bout 12 lorh,qs came awhile later ate aubway jiao wei. Went arcade wait for yan come,then cabbed to far east STAGE,the bag dun have the colour we want,like wtf? Knn,cab all the way for fuck. So walked to ion eat 4fingers,agreed it was still damn nice,then met up with yx and ze,then mrt to vivo find beng and mok,bought ticks for the 6.40 show,then slacked at skypark there and arcade again lorh. Damn nice to sit there see the breeze..then watched the fucking movie knn which bastard write the script make me sleep for half the movie,like literally fell asleep there,then finally over lerh qs bladder prob again went toilet for like 4th time,mrt to je take 334 go yx hse eat dinner,actually nvr really eat larh,her mom there then ps onli kb and yan eat in the end.But got buy dim sum give us eat larh..so eat lorh,then faster rush to the shop buy paper make card for my grandmother birthday like Cb the shop 10.30 close i reach 10.35 liddat sia. So like fuck lorh,walked home then bout it liao lorh. Seems weird but..Happy birthday to grandma =D Have a happy birthday,and many more to come. Sian..tmr how eh..?

yuan lai zui teng tong de biao qing jing shi mei you qing xu
yuan lai zui can ren de hua mian ke yi tian yan mi yu
wo bu dong de ru he geng ai ni
ying zi feng ci de gen zhe wo nan fen nan li
yuan lai zui gu dan de shi wo hai shi na ma xiang ni
yuan lai zui bei ai de shi wo bu neng mian dui zi ji
ni shou de gan jing
wo ye hui bu liu yi dian hen ji
Yuan Lai-JJ Lin

2009-12-13T06:17:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow's only awhile later,But it looks like a start of a hell of a long day.
Today was weird. Woke up some random time bout 2,went to find ah nick trim hair.Then ate prawn noodles zk come down,walk walk walk,camp at exercise there play,then bussed home.Tmr going out again,fuck i can't sleep..but i have to wake up at by 11? Sucks.
Found out smth interesting ;D But cannot say sia. Sadded.

2009-12-11T09:51:00.000-08:00

Today was another twist of fate,Woke up bout 3+,wanted go ion eat the 4 fingers chicken damn fucking nice one but changed my mind cos abit sian go so far to eat chicken onli =.= so used com awhile then 6+ abt to have a nap that time zk sms me call me help him check some stuff....figure it out yrself,so went to IMM feeling tired as still in "nap" mode,made sure everything was ok,slacked til he came then ate out dinner lorh. Subway,fucking got scammed after i realised can put more then one sauce one,like wtf? i always put one cos i thot max mah.knn. Camped til 10 then yx pack up store,dunno deposit what thing then got dragged to walk to je there..then nearly had to wait for her boss from orchard but zhao first lorh,some other time then wait with u all larh,waked to 7-11 buy stuff,waited fucking long for one damn bus then can go home..best part reach home lerh no one,11 lerh mom/dad dunno zhao go whre? Then better then zk still,he cena caught by police cos one gang got his fren one come say hi onli then they zhao he left there cena call mom get scolded,So yeah,got off pretty lightly liao lorh. Tmr must go eat subway put all their sauce again ;D

2009-12-11T01:47:00.000-08:00

Well,realised that i had a blog like,just now. So yeah. Stuff happens,life continues.
Updating abit on chalet i guess. Day1 we just had bbq after waiting freaking long for huiyin's fren to collect the keys,den went night cycling but due to some unfortunate stuff one trip was fucking stupid. Then toned with a few ppl while others took up whatever space left. Day2 went escapetheme park play play til fucking wet,then went back showered,then bowling,wanted go pool but closed liao,so camped indoors play 5-10 with yj losing like fuck,then drink and drink then lose somemore then i can't rmb what happen but i did alot of stupid stuff with yj apparantly. Woke up bout 3-4am with a hell of a headache,realised yj vomited then moved downstairs to sleep,cb cold then,keep switching places to sleep from upstairs,to down,to outside to finally mattress. Woke up
extremely pissed off somehow with alittle bit of a headache. Bathed then ate breakfast then homed mrt sleep, Slept til piano class then faster home sleep somemore.
Yesterday wokeup bout 4+? then damn fucking hungry walk go IMM eat mos burger. Then so zhun yx working so call zk then we go walk around,slack til bout 10 then she close shop,walked back home again..so sian.
What to do what to do what to do..?

2009-12-06T01:10:00.000-08:00

Death is but a release for those who are already dead inside.
Fuck you,i lost,i give up.
You win.

2009-11-30T09:30:00.000-08:00

LONG LONG time since i updated..let's see what's been going on..
Camped 2weeks at my cuz's hse,
Watched 2012 in gold class
Watched new moon in cinemas before the release date
Watched a christmas carol
Hung out in places in singapore i never knew abt before
Gotten closer with certain people i wasn't that close with previously
Moved on =)

A special thanks to whoever helped me during the pretty lengthy period of time.
Well..better get to sleep soon,like 1.30am and i have to wake up at 6 later to go genting,looking forward to class chalet =D

Love lost is love found somewhere else

2009-11-20T16:10:00.000-08:00

Today was a pretty awesome day i guess,since i slept bout 7am the day be4,woke up at 2pm cos my cuz got tuition,then he tuitioned til 4,then slacked til 5 we left to try and find paradise centre,nvr heard of it? nvr have it til today,went plaza sg there then wonder nearly an hour while talking to his dad on how to go,turns out it was renamed then we finally found it after asking. Slacked,went back plaza sg,ate,saw the 100hours movie marathon thing. Headed home bout 10+ when we realised he didn't bring key and his dad and bro were out..=.= then so boh bian camp at playground til 1am+ then his dad come and open door,played poker after awhile when his bro came back till..7.50am,which explains why im awake now. Sooo..nites/morning/Whatever. looking forward to our class chalet and my trip to genting. Having one last round of gambling tonite be4 i have to go home tmr cos he got his class chalet.
The stars at night in the pitch black sky reminds me of you.

Never get too attached to any one thing as nothing lasts forever,forever just takes more time to be over.

2009-11-17T06:46:00.000-08:00

Bored,BORED,BORING?

Beyond the world,to the end of time,
Where the rain won't hurt,fighting the storm,into the blue,
And when i lose myself i think of you.
Monsoon -Tokio Hotel

2009-11-16T09:28:00.001-08:00

I have nth to update,nowhere to go,no one to talk to,nothing to do and nothing ahead of me. So what do i do now?

If we all had a second chance at life,would everything be different?
How would we change?
What would we all be?

Nothing's ever build to last.
So treasure everything before it's gone.

On a side note,zk is going off to china this thurs,so yeah,remember a souvenir.

2009-11-14T11:04:00.000-08:00

So let's see..yesterday went safra,play like siao with them again,me and mok burned our skin off in a acident at the slide when we all tried to go down tgt,his injuries worse then mine cos he second then 2ppl fell on him while only he fell on me,both our skin come out then today black black one. Today went to pray,then decided to stay one more week at my cuz's hse til he go chalet cos damn boring at home also,went to pray cos my great grandma's death ani today..RIP great grandma. Then slacked at home cos i called zk then he dun want go out,tmr going bugis bah..need buy some clothes and mon need go back take clothes for another week. Havn't seen alot of ppl in some time,sooo yeah.

Breathing slowly,Walking backwards,
Let me kiss you one last time.

2009-11-12T07:24:00.000-08:00

Yesterday went out with zk colour hair first then went IMM thre entertain yx for awhile,then went to jp buy stuff,got my new phone,then slacked awhile at bluez,long time nvr see ritz liao,cos he quit,didn't know til yesterday then back to cuz's hse bout 10+. Today went suntec with him go find mok and kb take mok's SNSD poster,then to plazasing walk around,to vivo shop around first before catching the 6.00 show -2012.
Damn nice but damn long also,2hrs 45mins,First time watching in gold class,fucking awesome,bought pants and a jacket.afterwards back to plazasg buy a sword i saw,then back to his hse again. Tmr going SAFRA play their playground again,looking forward to it i guess.

Memories Of Nobody

2009-11-10T05:47:00.000-08:00

Well,life carries on no matter what,slowly almost as if forcibly.
Back to blogging i guess,tmr going colour hair with zk,staying at my cuzs hse til probly bout sat bah,going out to pass the time.
But is this what i want?
I still miss you..love you.

2009-11-08T07:20:00.000-08:00

Well,com spoil so now at cuz's hse updating,ton here a few days bah,so these few days,or weeks have been going out and out and out,to more and more new places lorh,photos i think on most ppl's facebook. Uhh..yeah,cool.

Truth be told i miss you,everyday,every night.
Only you,
But Forever is Over

2009-10-18T04:08:00.000-07:00

"Down Goes Another One"
By: Mcfly

Did the best that I could
Said I'd die for you and I would
But I drowned all those feelings in the flood

Need to know if you're there
If you're listening to my prayers to my tears
Feel like raindrops through the mud

How was I to know that a year ago I'd need to read between the lines
And every lie and thats why

Every time I fall asleep my dreams are haunted
And every time I close my eyes I'm not alone
And every time I cry I'm right back where you wanted
I try to drown you out so down goes another one
(Down goes another one)
Down goes another one
(Down goes another one)
Down goes another one
(Down goes another one)

Living Fast
Dying young
But I'm living with what you've done
Now I face accusations
I won't run
No

I'm starting to remember things that you said
I'm unravelling what they meant
But the world moves on
You're just another one

And how can I go on
'Cause when I'm in the sun I see your shadow on the ground
But you're never there when I turn around

Every time I fall asleep my dreams are haunted
And every time I close my eyes I'm not alone
And every time I cry I'm right back where you wanted
I try to drown you out so down goes another one

Whoo

And how can I go on
'Cause when I'm in the sun I see your shadow on the ground
(Shadow on the ground)
But you're never there when I turn around

'Cause every time I fall asleep my dreams are haunted
(My dreams are haunted)
And every time I close my eyes I'm not alone
And every time I cry I'm right back where you wanted
(Right back where you wanted)
I try to drown you out so down goes another one
(Hey)
Down goes another one
(Down goes another one)
Down goes another one
(Hey)
Down goes another one
(Down goes another one)
Down goes another on
Down goes another one
(Down goes another one)
Down goes another one)

2009-10-17T07:48:00.000-07:00

Went to make my new specs today =D but only ready this friday sia..Then went to have ajisen dinner,damn nice sia the unagi there,dessert,walked around abit more,then finally bought my FF Advent children movie ^^ happy like siao,then homed liao

Not a day goes by without me thinking of you.

2009-10-16T09:26:00.000-07:00

I love you..hah,what a joke
Three simple words with so much meaning,just thrown about.
This beautiful place isn't everything they say.
Know that beautiful things don't always stay that way.
And im just walking in that circle with these three words,trapped

2009-10-16T04:45:00.000-07:00

Well,back. So first,my extremely crappy results
English: 67/100
Chinese Paper 1: 29/70
Paper 2: 41/70 (like holy fuck?)
Science: CHEM 47/85 (cos my mcq only got 5marks)
PHY Flunked by one mark ==
POA: 60/100
Humans: fuck i can't rmb either..
Maths: 42/100 FLUNKED

Today went home after sch to change directly,met zk,yz,kb,qs and vince at lakeside bout 2+ cos alot of them late. Went to city hall find some damn church that was in front of us to take a bus to SMG/Devilock party. Couldn't get in at first cos too damn crowded,so we went to eat at maxwell market first then walked abit before returning. Was pretty awesome cept the dogtags i want wasn't for sale =( Tommorow might be going with zk to buy rockband while im considering buying that shirt..Then we went back to look at a pair of handcuffs i wanted which was also NOT FOR SALE TOO? like knn..Walked all around chinatown to find the other busstop so we could bus to iluma,reached there pia arcade and stuff (alot chio bu..i think,couldn't see clearly without my specs X.X) til bout 6+ then bus to lakeside again with them while like all so early want go home,so i trained myself to je there drink bubble tea slack awhile,then bussed home lorh. Sian..so early..going to pia my maple liao..

It hurts so much to see your face all i can do is fake a smile.

2009-10-14T07:09:00.000-07:00

Today damn song lorh,woke up bout 11+,then dunno do what at home then went to meet zk and yj at 1+ cos i late =D then we went to play lighter fluid burn stuff lorh,but cos it's bloody raining,didn't play very long. Then went to 7-11 had our lunch,instant noodles,microwave food and biscuits =) camp there for an hour plus cos only 5 then can go up zk's hse. So went out burn more candles and stuff,walked around and slacked below,talked bout many stuff ;D Got to know more gang names,not that hard to rmb apparantly. Then finally went up,played com and helped zk settle his template crap,then went to have our dinner,the steak below is like one of the best i've eaten ever? Went up again took my stuff then walked to 99bustop with yj cos i didn't know how to go,bussed to Prawn noodles there,took 198 cos later got more options like 333,then took 333 home,reached home first thing saw on TV was my hse below that coffeeshop the crab noodles get advertised,then went down afterwards with my parents go try lorh,sucks like shit,then now tired like fuck..tmr still got school,take results X.X POA i know pass liao,but the rest..dunno? Best of luck to everybody _I_ can't do thumb up so,this is the best i can ;D

2009-10-13T04:07:00.000-07:00

Today was another great day i guess? D&T paper finish damn early,so bout 9.30 finish,then went bubbletea shop with Siling and zk they all(no Amaths one ;D) Then disiao the xiao jie awhile then walk all the way to mok's house there camp while siling was stalking us =.= Camp there til 11.30 then walk to zk hse downstairs wait him change lorh,then we bussed to jp there buy ticks for our movie,surrogates. While waiting for the rest to come we went to eat bento box first,damn nice,printed yao yao photo while mok went for his SNSD,vince came also then camp at anderson's ice cream again while the rest came,choc milk shake is awesome but nowhere as good as the thick shake =( Yan,qisong came,yi jun couldn't make it cos he sick somehow,then we go arcade pia awhile(See alot of chio bu) then go watch our movie liao,not bad eh,4/5 for surrogates,afterwards went to find kian beng and hongshen,wah lan they go bird park together eh. gou gay mah? Went park opposite there play alot of stupid game and slack there,leapfrog i fell like fuck,now got 4new blueblack cos of the swing thing and the leapfrog,lucky the somersault no serious one,but then cos of grass alot of like mosquito bites and damn fucking itchy,plus mok's hse scared to go next time liao,zq got 2small mosquito bites then i tio one fucking big wasp bite,swollen like nobody's buisness,the way home was extremely draggy and slow,homed bout 7+ again..tired..KO liao
PS:YAN,CHEER UP?

And all i could think about was you,and only you.

2009-10-12T06:46:00.000-07:00

There was no one other but you.

2009-10-12T06:10:00.000-07:00

Today was awesome i guess? Overslept and woke up at 10,when we were supposed to meet at 10.10 =.= So rushed then bussed to lakeside there find yan,zk,yj,zq,qs,vince then we bussed to his hse there play lorh. His mom very nice ;D cook some extremely nice egg sandwiches,lucky sia,then we play ps3,piano,watch rusell peters and play com,halfway me zk and qs go downstairs play skateboard =D then we buy lighter fluid play lorh,use glass bottle but nvr get to throw,cos got ppl,then qs keep saying he miss Donkey Kong ^^ Afterwards went up then play all the way til bout 6 lidat then i bussed home with them,they went to eat prawn noodles while i had to rush home cos i had to get smth for my grandmother,so good sia me =D Tmr going watch surrogate with them,looking forward to it,to afraid of D&T exam after knowing that it is like 1 and a half hour long X.X

River flows in you..

2009-10-11T08:51:00.000-07:00

Today woke up quite late..then went to cook omelette for breakfast which was a failure cos i forgot to put the oil beforehand =.= Then got a call from mok bout 1+ say go jp walk walk buy his stuff,so anything,then met vince on the bus,then to jp find mok,went to buy his keyboard,mouse Etc,in the end nvr buy the memory stick and screen protector cos no use and comics con was a ripoff,he treated us Anderson's ice cream one scoop each cos we took the time to come on a sun,thnks anyway,then i got a thick shake which was like totally awesome,went to lib dropped off my books before we cabbed to mok's hse,then played little fighter 2 >.> and blackout raknorok before i left at 5 to head to church to pray for ok results for most and good results for some,then ate dinner at alexandra village and cabbed home cos lazy wait for bus.

So hate sleeping late now..all i can think about are those memories..all i can remember is her smile,and all our good memories..to think that i even learned that song unwittingly just cos i rmbed she liked it..all before i realised that it was alrdy too late..what a joke..

2009-10-10T09:35:00.000-07:00

Loveless

Act I:

Infinite in mystery is the gift of the goddess
We seek it thus, and take to the sky.
Ripples form on the water's surface
The wandering soul knows no rest.

Act II:

My Friend, your desire
Is the bringer of life, the gift of the goddess.

Legend shall speak of sacrifice at worlds end.
The wind sails over the water's surface
Quietly, but surely...

Act III:

As the war sends the world hurtling towards destruction
The prisoner departs with his newfound love
And embarks on a new journey.

He is guided by hope that the gift will bring bliss
And the oath that he swore to his friends.

Though no oath is shared between the lovers,
In thier hearts they know they will meet again.

Act IV:

There is no hate, only joy
For you are beloved by the goddess.
Hero of the Dawn, Healer of Worlds.

Three friends go into battle
One is captured,
One flies away,
the one that is left becomes a hero.
If we were to enact it,
would I be the one to play the hero,
Or would You?
Indeed
After all, your glory should have been mine.

My Friend, the fates are cruel
There are no dreams, no honour remains.
The arrow has left the bow of the goddess.

My Soul corrupted by vengeance,
Hath endures torment,
To find the end of the journey in my own salvation.
And Your eternal slumber.

Now what i want most...
is the 'Gift of the Goddess'...

Act V:

Dreams of the morrow hath shattered soul
Pride is Lost.

Wings stripped away, the end is nigh
Such is... the fate of a monster.

Even if the morrow is barren of promises,
nothing shall forestall my return.
If this world seeks my destruction...
... It goes with Me

ACT Vl

Even if the morrow is barren of promises,
Nothing shall fortell my return

To become the dew that quenches the land,
To spare the sands, the seas, the skies
I offer thee this silent sacrifice

The Prologue:
When the war of the beasts brings about the world's end,
The goddess descends from the sky

Wings of light and dark spread afar,
She guides us to bliss, her gift everlasting...

REPLAYING CRISIS CORE ALL OVER AGAIN BEFORE PIA DISSIDIA DURING EXTENDED WEEKEND,only completed cloud de story so far..sucks,i know =.=

2009-10-10T00:22:00.000-07:00

Long time no update so to summarise,wed was like normal,went home change,then go gek poh find yj and yy,then spent 8bucks on a passion card i might nvr use again just to get into the study room,then spent less then half and hour there mostly playing card tricks =.= then went off for my piano lessons. Thurs went to zq's hse with yz,qs,zq(duh),vince to study POA,his mom is awesome but kinda naggy,then studied like from 12+ to 6+ then take bus with vince to lakeside,pwned him in scissors paper stoned and he had to take 187 too. Yesterday was probly the most awesome one yet,paper finished the earliest bout 1010? Then went to lakeside to wait for the Amaths one for awhile,trained to jp with mok,vin and zk to look for mok's stuff,missed the long john breakfast by like 2mins cos of a couple of gay bastards all ordering at the same time,so went mac to find yj,cos he with ze and yx,but he damn busy apparantly so we went to the park opposite there to play,then got a drink and decided to go lib to find yj,vince left first cos he had some stuff to do after a mysterious phone call =.= So went lib and found yj with a even bigger group of girls this time + fazi. Then went the swinging thing outside lib and watched them play lorh,yj play that time like damn pervert one,keep swinging all the girls when they climbing,Then they left with mok and me yj and zk play awhile more,then went lib inside there jiao wei lorh,found out smth interesting but i can't post it at all. Amazingly bout 2hours flew away there and went outside play somemore then got this siao zha bor,like younger then us come guai lan,say dunno what girl scout what she got counselling,then anyhow shout one,went jp get bubble tea,then walked around somemore then homed bout 7+? fell asleep immediately.
Today was nth much,feel like going out but like nowhere to go,btw,order is this fri for those who are attending. So far only confirmed ones are zk,yj,yz,vin,qs,me,kb(maybe),zq(maybe) for those who dunno and want to go,details here
DVLK X SMG Party (devilock and smudge)

ORDER
DATE: 16 October 2009
TIME: 12pm to 6pm
VENUE: SMUDGEstore
[8A Ann Siang Hill (Level 2) Singapore 069788]

CHAOS
DATE: 16 October 2009
TIME: 9 pm till late
VENUE: Rebel Boutique Club
[Block C The Cannery, River Valley Road #01-07 Clarke Quay]

Wondering if should go chaos,or catch a movie after order so yeah,goodluck to Amaths students And D&T students for their papers.This is like the longest post in forever.

"the fairytale was twisted and decayed.."
Corrupted by Mcfly

2009-10-06T07:32:00.000-07:00

Is it so wrong to be so happy just to admire her from a distance,(no this is not bout ch) But it's just so impossible.

Throw it away,forget yesterday,we'll make the great escape
I'm going to make my great escape.

2009-10-05T08:04:00.000-07:00

Got a near heart attack just now cos i nearly posted the wrong thing =.=
So nth much,maths GG liao,eng i find like ok one,so yeah.

Ignorance is bliss

2009-10-04T08:55:00.000-07:00

Revelation 6

1And I saw when the Lamb opened one of the seals, and I heard, as it were the noise of thunder, one of the four beasts saying, Come and see.

2And I saw, and behold a white horse: and he that sat on him had a bow; and a crown was given unto him: and he went forth conquering, and to conquer.

3And when he had opened the second seal, I heard the second beast say, Come and see.

4And there went out another horse that was red: and power was given to him that sat thereon to take peace from the earth, and that they should kill one another: and there was given unto him a great sword.

5And when he had opened the third seal, I heard the third beast say, Come and see. And I beheld, and lo a black horse; and he that sat on him had a pair of balances in his hand.

6And I heard a voice in the midst of the four beasts say, A measure of wheat for a penny, and three measures of barley for a penny; and see thou hurt not the oil and the wine.

7And when he had opened the fourth seal, I heard the voice of the fourth beast say, Come and see.

8And I looked, and behold a pale horse: and his name that sat on him was Death, and Hell followed with him. And power was given unto them over the fourth part of the earth, to kill with sword, and with hunger, and with death, and with the beasts of the earth.

9And when he had opened the fifth seal, I saw under the altar the souls of them that were slain for the word of God, and for the testimony which they held:

10And they cried with a loud voice, saying, How long, O Lord, holy and true, dost thou not judge and avenge our blood on them that dwell on the earth?

11And white robes were given unto every one of them; and it was said unto them, that they should rest yet for a little season, until their fellowservants also and their brethren, that should be killed as they were, should be fulfilled.

12And I beheld when he had opened the sixth seal, and, lo, there was a great earthquake; and the sun became black as sackcloth of hair, and the moon became as blood;

13And the stars of heaven fell unto the earth, even as a fig tree casteth her untimely figs, when she is shaken of a mighty wind.

14And the heaven departed as a scroll when it is rolled together; and every mountain and island were moved out of their places.

15And the kings of the earth, and the great men, and the rich men, and the chief captains, and the mighty men, and every bondman, and every free man, hid themselves in the dens and in the rocks of the mountains;

16And said to the mountains and rocks, Fall on us, and hide us from the face of him that sitteth on the throne, and from the wrath of the Lamb:

17For the great day of his wrath is come; and who shall be able to stand?

-The Book Of Revelation

Acording to the bible,this is how we are all going to die.

2009-10-04T04:54:00.000-07:00

Down goes another one by MCFLY
Did the best that I could
Said I'd die for you and I would
But I drowned all those feelings in the flood

Need to know if you're there
If you're listening to my prayers to my tears
Feel like raindrops through the mud

How was I to know that a year ago I'd need to read between the lines
And every lie and thats why

Every time I fall asleep my dreams are haunted
And every time I close my eyes I'm not alone
And every time I cry I'm right back where you wanted
I try to drown you out so down goes another one
(Down goes another one)
Down goes another one
(Down goes another one)
Down goes another one
(Down goes another one)

Living Fast
Dying young
But I'm living with what you've done
Now I face accusations
I won't run
No

I'm starting to remember things that you said
I'm unravelling what they meant
But the world moves on
You're just another one

And how can I go on
'Cause when I'm in the sun I see your shadow on the ground
But you're never there when I turn around

Every time I fall asleep my dreams are haunted
And every time I close my eyes I'm not alone
And every time I cry I'm right back where you wanted
I try to drown you out so down goes another one

Whoo

And how can I go on
'Cause when I'm in the sun I see your shadow on the ground
(Shadow on the ground)
But you're never there when I turn around

'Cause every time I fall asleep my dreams are haunted
(My dreams are haunted)
And every time I close my eyes I'm not alone
And every time I cry I'm right back where you wanted
(Right back where you wanted)
I try to drown you out so down goes another one

These few days have been weird much? Havn't been doing much cept flipping thru books now and then,cos tmr is fucking maths,damnit..going to ton tonite to finish up some of the stuff in book A,im hoping for no graphs. So..yeah.Had a kinda weird dream last night,was at the mrt then i saw her,then i like went to hug her then she pushed me away,then i wondering like why? Then she reminded me that we broke up alrdy,that woke me up,like figuratively and literally,cos i really realised then like,wow,she's not here anymore. So yeah,feels weird

2009-10-01T08:54:00.000-07:00

Everywhere i look relationships are ending and there are still no happy endings.

2009-10-01T06:06:00.000-07:00

Today damn fuck lorh,sch was history and eng paper 1,history pass bah but dunno how much,eng should be not bad de lorh. Then after school we went go eat,me yj go eat kfc vince zk go eat chicken supremo or smth liddat,then we go some block slack first,play match burn,damn fun,then we second round go play cena conficate by tcher from our sch =.= Then we go sit under some other one play/slack larh,then we play truth or dare alot of bullshit one. Then some bastard call the police,then we tio. Vince went towards MRT first so he zhao,me yj zk cena write IC and address,knn,then he say for recording only,BETTER BE. if not cb i sure go burn down the person hse one =.= Then bout 5+ i zhao home liao. Wondering what will happen,hope the police really is to record only X.X

You're Just So Fucking Perfect

Pictures of you, pictures of me
Hung upon your wall for the world to see
Pictures of you, pictures of me
Remind us all of what we used to be

Confess to me, every secret moment
Every stolen promise you believed
Confess to me, all that lies between us
All that lies between you and me

Pictures Of You -The Last Goodnight

2009-09-30T08:14:00.000-07:00

Ok,a quick update bah..
Yesterday went to eat with they all,then nearly saw someone die =.= Waited for ambulance with zk.

Today after sch chiong home change,then go back sch there find zk then go jp buy gun slack,went johnlittle buy his,then went pop buy my,coup one pack of bullets. Then slacked til bout 5plus at jp and at his hse,then went his hse. Fucking messy,then had all out nerf war with him and his bro,play til sweaty sweaty then 8 they go eat downstairs,i cabbed to doraemon/nick there eat prawn noodles then homed.

I wonder when the pain will truly fade

2009-09-29T08:15:00.000-07:00

Last Night lyrics

(feat. Diddy)

[Diddy:]
Last night.
I couldn't even get an answer.
I tried to call but my pride wouldn't let me dial.
And I'm sitting here with this blank expression.
And the way I feel, I wanna curl up like a child.

I know you can hear me.
I know you can feel me.
I can't live without you.
God, please make me betta.
I wish I wasn't the way I am.

[Keyshia Cole:]
If I told you once, I told you twice.
You can see it in my eyes.
I'm all cried out with nothing to say.
You're everything I wanted to be.
If you could only see your hearts belongs to me.
I love you so much.
I'm yearning for your touch.
Come and set me free.
Forever yours I'll be.
Baby, won't you come and take this pain away.

[Diddy:]
Last night.
I couldn't even get an answer. (You said you couldn't get an answer baby)
I tried to call but my pride wouldn't let me dial. (But that should never stop you)
And I'm sitting here with this blank expression. (Sitting there, I can't reach your mind baby)
And the way I feel, I wanna curl up like a child. (The way I feel, a baby)

[Keyshia Cole:]
I need you and you need me.
This is so plain to see.
And I would never let you go.
And I will always love you so.
I will...

If you could only see your hearts belongs to me.
I love you so much.
I'm yearning for your touch.
Come and set me free.
Forever yours I'll be.
Baby, won't you come and take this pain away.

[Diddy:]
Last night. (Oh, last night)
I couldn't even get an answer. (Baby why you wanna do me, yeah)
I tried to call but my pride wouldn't let me dial. (Why won't you just call me baby oh?)
And I'm sitting here with this blank expression. (Don't sit there baby, no, no, no)
And the way I feel, I wanna curl up like a child. ( Alright, I'm so alone; I'm so lonely, baby)

[Bridge:]
Tell me the words to say,
To make you come back,
And work me like that.
And if it matters I'll rather stay home,
With you I'm never alone.
Don't want to wait till you're gone,
Let me be, just don't leave me.

[Diddy:]
Last night. (Yeah)
I couldn't even get an answer. (Couldn't get an answer baby, oh)
I tried to call but my pride wouldn't let me dial. (Call me baby, why couldn't you just dial
me baby, baby, baby, baby, baby, baby)
And I'm sitting here with this blank expression. (Don't sit there, no)
And the way I feel, I wanna curl up like a child. (Alright, I'm so alone, I'm so lonely baby)

[Keyshia Cole:]
I need you and you need me. (Need you, I need you)
This is so plain to see.
And I would never let you go.
And I will always love you so.
I will...

If you could only see your hearts belongs to me. (Only see)
I love you so much. (So, so)
I'm yearning for your touch.
Come and set me free.
Forever yours I'll be.
Baby, won't you come and take my pain away. (Hey)

[Diddy:]
Last night.
I couldn't even get an answer. (I couldn't catch you baby, no)
I tried to call but my pride wouldn't let me dial. (Call me baby, why couldn't you just dial
me baby, baby, baby, baby, baby, baby)
And I'm sitting here with this blank expression. (Don't sit there, no)
And the way I feel, I wanna curl up like a child. (Alright, I'm so alone; I'm so lonely, baby)

[Keyshia Cole:]
Why don't you pick up the phone and dial up my number?
And call me my baby.
I'm waiting on you.
Why don't you pick up the phone and dial up my number?
Just call me up baby.
I'm waiting on you.

2009-09-26T08:11:00.000-07:00

Sian..so tired,today woke up at 11,then prepare prepare go jp lib find mok,then play slack there awhile,ate the hotdog(eat til messy like fuck) then bout 2+ go bugis there find zk,walked around in iluma first til he came,bought a damn nice FF7 poster for 10bucks X.X then we walked to some deserted busstop then bussed on 197 to An Siang hill there find SMG,really damn deserted then on second floor damn hard find one,then he booked his cap,i decided to get a tee the next time we went,then we walked again to maxwell market eat AGAIN XD then ate there the prawn mee can challenge sch there that one..then sian sian cos he going to his original hse,so we cabbed to JP,$15 cab fare =.= Then went the bluez slacked,he buy one spike enlarger so damnbig,put less then halfway he pain like shit. Then i bought one nerf gun RECON =D went to buy spraypaint,saw ******* again,then he went home,i trained to my aunt's hse there,slept for awhile til bout 9,went for supper,yakun toast with coke =) then trained home again.
Today very happy,saw alot alot chio bu =D

The smile when you tore me apart.

2009-09-24T07:10:00.000-07:00

Today was ok? The day like very fast lorh,then eng free period song sia. After sch went with zk first to jp,yj and vin suppose to come one but their aeroplane fly =.= So zk ate then went to lib "study" with wanyi,yy,mok,zk,kb. Then there saw some guy damn daring,directly stick his hand to his gf's skirt there,everyone watching them,then i trying not to laugh,then there got a lot of "huang se xiao hua" Then after that went to eat lai lai,then bussed home alone,nb i fell asleep in the end wake up next to some forest,have to go other side take back =.= Reached home tired like dunno what then KO.
Wondering to watch yu le bai fen bai tonite..hmm..

As it is written,it will come to pass.

2009-09-23T06:28:00.000-07:00

Well,after seeing her blog for what i promised myself will be the last time,it's good to know she's happy and "loving it" or smth like that. I've gotta get over this,i've got to forget everything.
BRAND NEW START
I'm backkkk and better then ever =D

2009-09-23T03:15:00.000-07:00

Well..today was kinda a boring day..managed to wake up at least..felt weird walking to school alone..i wonder when will this emptiness end.Then whole day ok ok,some part quite boring,some part ok..then finally finish,then drink bubble tea then home lorh..
AGAIN,dun read if you dun want know how i feel.

Some stupid ppl decided to do this challenge with all the express..so had to see her face..i really just want this feeling to end..
I hate myself for believing in a stupid dream
I hate myself for the pain i feel.
I hate myself for letting my heart take control
I hate myself for not being able to look her in the eye
I hate myself for loving at all
I hate myself for not being able to let go of everything
Help me? pls..?

2009-09-22T07:49:00.000-07:00

I guess if this ends now..because of this,i shouldn't be too upset..it would have ended anyway if something else comes up..i guess i do have one regret after all,that it ended like this..too fast,so sudden

2009-09-22T02:33:00.000-07:00

Well..i survived today so yeah..went better then i expected,then after sch went to the bluez go get some stuff..got this liqour holder,damn cool..then ate,then yj came then slacked then bussed home..everything was ok til the way home alone..when like i really feel something is missing..like very hollow you know? So just turned up the volume and listened louder..then thankfully home..
DUN READ BELOW IF YOU DUN WANNA HEAR SOME CRAP BOUT HOW I FEEL,thank you.

Day 1:Well..a part of me has literally died,the part that still believed in happy endings,and
also like always being together..now that i look back,that way of thinking seems so..misleading,to the point where i gave it my all,and did everything i could think of,even stuff i didn't like just to keep this hollow dream alive..but then the pieces came crashing down and it was like a quick slap,there are no happy endings,no such thing as always being together,no such thing as true,forever love. Im tired,it's time to forget everything,and just hope for the pain to numb.
[end post]

2009-09-21T08:28:00.001-07:00

I regret nothing.
I loved her to the end,and if this is how it ends,
then be happy.

You yi zhong ai,jiao zhuo fang shou (lazy go translate into real chi)
it means there's a type of love,called letting go

2009-09-20T08:41:00.000-07:00

Heartbreaking Sadness.

2009-09-20T07:05:00.000-07:00

Today was ok i guess..i actually went to church sia,cos i rmb that that day playing bball with them got one throw i promise if go in i go church then really in,so i went lorh. The day started like this,went to eat lunch myself..=( then so heng saw my friend,then eat together lorh,then afterwards she like,eh go whre now,then i ask her want go church anot? then anything lorh,worst thing is want go city harvest one,but dunno how go,so we assume assume then go lorh,CITY harvest,so i thought around CITY hall,then somehow from there we ask for directions then we go,attended mass or whatever they called it,then i fell asleep twice =.= even tho like sing sing one,then the first time i landed on her shoulder =.= second time worst,landed on some stranger's lap halfway =.= then gave up then eat sweet to stay awake. Finally finish alrdy trained home for dunno which of my auntie's birthday. got chili crab and bun =D Then come home go bathe qisong msn me show me this fucking disgusting vid,the guy jump,then miss hit his face,smash til is one big hole the mother also cannot recognise,tues must rmb to go fuck him upside down. So in all,an ok day,BTW i got a new idol,YAO YAO!! Damn cute/chio lorh! go google her cos i think onli zk will know who she is =D

Empty days and Hollow nights

2009-09-19T07:00:00.000-07:00

What a joke,i really shouldn't have worried.
You win,lim ching han.
Now everything is messed up.

2009-09-19T05:53:00.001-07:00

Continued from earlier
Me:goes to sleep
Then wakeup
Me:go outside see,dinner on table =.=
extremely kb face after coming home and this shit happens
Bitch(mom):Buy dinner for you alrdy dun give me this face
Me:Thought you say we going out for dinnner? Come back for what then
Bitch(mom)who call you go and sleep?
Me:You can say if i dun sleep we will go out?
Bitch(mom):you dun talk to me like that,is this how your sch teach you?
Me:*rolls eyes then continue listening my music*
Bitch(mom):*walk over* then say dunno what "if this is how you talk to me after i brought you up for 15years then i curse you,i curse you! something like that.
Me: *stand up go toilet*
Bitch(mom): is this how other ppl talk to their parents?
Me(Cannot take it alrdy):Is this how other parents treat their kids?
Then i go toilet then i go bathe again.Of course the convo was about 2times as long but i didn't bother and couldn't rmb everything. Wasting my time sia,crazy one =.= want go dinner go until dunno go where,as for the dinner,tell her go fuck herself with it,i rather starve then eat that shit. Again the unfortunate thing i i have no one to talk to bout this..sian..byes for now.

2009-09-19T02:58:00.000-07:00

A quick update,today was half ok,woke up bout 1+ then watched MTV music awards,then bout 4 went with zk go cut hair at ah nick and doraemon there,then must wait got today alot ppl,then cut lerh went to eat,the ban mian not bad there. Then abt to go zk hse that time i nicely call my mom and tell her,then she say dunno what fuck cannot go cos going eat dinner,FUCK YOU larh,you eat dinner my problem? i want eat with you? Go to hell larh,say so much fuck waste my time only.I dun want talk to you hang up larh so? You call again for what? Fuck off from my life larh.

2009-09-18T05:04:00.001-07:00

Finally updating,let me recall..
Wednesday: Average day,went jp after sch with yijun and zk,went the the bluez,buy his bicycle card again and ate then homed,off to piano lessons,then went to eat the best prawn noodles for dinner. Went to see ah nick and doraemon
Thursday: Slow day,went to go eat the best prawn noodle again,went with vince,zk,then later yan and zq come,played basketball against some random ppl we met,alot of damn lucky shots,then yan zq and vince left first,me and zk continued playing,then drink bubble tea then homed.
Today: Extremely lousy day,after sch go take report book,then went to maths remedial,then went with mok vince zk walk to busstop take bus then went to mac to camp cos raining.had drinking competition with zk at cheers,3packs milk tea see who drink faster,i won,then zk came down after going his hse there change then bussed with vince and zk,went to ten mile with zk to see how far. It is very far. Saw someone with extremely mental powers asking everyone for $2,then reached ten mile,got off and Uturned to take the next bus home

Anyway with EOYs coming the pressure is killing everyone..have any of you been happy yet sad before? I feel like so..weird,like im breaking down but still ok at the same time. Should i talk to someone bout everything? i dunno,is there anyone i CAN talk to?

Along the staircase,
I dream to hear you,
In a whisper quiet room,
Space for thinking,
Space to scream to,
But the echoes sound like you,
Not the stars at night,
In a pitch black sky,
I don't know just wants to see you
But the time is right and it only flies.

2009-09-14T07:44:00.000-07:00

Im wondering,is money really so important? to the point whre you can ignore your loved ones just for the chance to get that money? If i had money could i buy that time?

Today was ok? Had a religious discussion with aini,zk,nabil and gillian today,we should hold those more often,then sch finish go lib slack then somehow zk had the luck to come to the lib be4 going home,then i there lorh,then we go jp lorh,help ah-ge buy lunch,then i think the other chio one like emo-ing or diet? dunno why also,then after that walk around the bluez then homed liao. i think i really need to talk to someone now..feeling so..uneasy or weird nowadays..

2009-09-12T10:07:00.001-07:00

Hate someone you love,because you love them.

2009-09-12T06:24:00.000-07:00

"Lion with small penis,must compensate for it with mighty roar"
A quote from american pie:Beta House
LOL

2009-09-12T04:30:00.000-07:00

One word to describe how i feel now,sian.and tired so three words. Woke up bout 1plus today..cos slept at bout 4,tonite sure ton one,cos so called "last night of holiday" so die die also must ton. Then slacked,watched tv awhile,surfed the net,then got called by zk ask me follow him go buy gun..considered for awhile then changed and bussed down to buy his gun,look damn stupid after we opened it =.= So then bought his gun,repaired his belt,ate,walked around then homed,and i had to watch his stupid face laughing cos his bus came earlier then my 187 _I_ Then later going to the pasar malam opposite my hse for dinner bah..=D

Follow the melody of the band.

Top Of The World By All American Rejects (one of the nicest songs i ever heard,cept the intro a little lousy but still one of the best ever =D 4.9/5)

[Verse 1]
Is there anybody out there?
That wakes up with a bitter taste?
It's a king that we put up there
And he's a short way to fall from grace
It's slowly filling upward.
You can stand but you have no ground.
I hear it from the lost words.
They say it's time that you lost your crown.

[Chorus]
Don't be so greedy.
A dollar's a penny to you
When hearts are beating
Say what you want 'em to do.
Wasting away... I see you.
When the top of the world falls on you
Finding a day, don't wanna be you
When the top of the world falls on you

[Verse 2]
Is there anybody out there?
That can see what a man can change?
It's better that you don't care
Because he knows that he's in his stage
I feel the paranoia.
When there's a time, put you in your place
In the eyes of those who watch ya
Well they can wait 'til you hit your face

[Chorus]
Don't be so greedy.
A dollar's a penny to you
When hearts are beating
Say what you want 'em to do.
Wasting away... I see you.
When the top of the world falls on you
Finally a day, don't wanna be you.
When the top of the world falls on you

Paint yourself a picture
When you waste another picture
And you win, and you win, and you win
Paint yourself a picture
And then you break another picture
And you win, and you win, and you win
And you win, yeah you win, and you win

[Chorus]
Don't be so greedy
A dollar's a penny to you
When hearts stop beating
Say what you want 'em to do
Wasting away... I see you
When the top of the world falls on you
Finding a day, don't wanna be you
When the top of the world falls on you

Wasting away... I see you
When the top of the world falls on you
Finding a day, don't wanna be you
When the top of the world falls on you

2009-09-11T10:16:00.000-07:00

A debate that happened at 0340 hours between me and zk,started out as we wanted watch the xiao zhu xiao gui show(yu le bai fen bai i think) one,then dun have,then read on to see what happens..=D
(BTW the link he put was a porn site =.=)

[b]Saint Nick[/c] Chapter 6 Of Humanity,The Lust says:
havn't start eh
wait awhile more first

"And i thank the lord still..." says:
i tink dunn hav luh

[b]Saint Nick[/c] Chapter 6 Of Humanity,The Lust says:
shit really dun have
now got some stupid drama

"And i thank the lord still..." says:
hahar
nuub mediacorp
let go taiwan now watch live de

[b]Saint Nick[/c] Chapter 6 Of Humanity,The Lust says:
ok,you book tickets
i go pack first

"And i thank the lord still..." says:
kay ibook u pay
set??
wan mah
if yes
i go book now

[b]Saint Nick[/c] Chapter 6 Of Humanity,The Lust says:
ok anything,you pay first
i pass you later

"And i thank the lord still..." says:
erm
kay
giv mi cheque
i take liao den go pay
den how i pay

[b]Saint Nick[/c] Chapter 6 Of Humanity,The Lust says:
my checkbook at my aunt's hse

"And i thank the lord still..." says:
nvr giv i cannot pay

[b]Saint Nick[/c] Chapter 6 Of Humanity,The Lust says:
you use your own one pay first
i'll write you a check later

"And i thank the lord still..." says:
is not tat i dunn wan pay is tat ur money all taiwan currency easier
they say no cheque

[b]Saint Nick[/c] Chapter 6 Of Humanity,The Lust says:
ok,i use mine change to taiwan currency

"And i thank the lord still..." says:
mus cash

[b]Saint Nick[/c] Chapter 6 Of Humanity,The Lust says:
then you buy the tickets

"And i thank the lord still..." says:
kay luh
i noe wat to do liao
i go borrow frm loan shark
u guarentor

[b]Saint Nick[/c] Chapter 6 Of Humanity,The Lust says:
dun need,i go loan company

"And i thank the lord still..." says:
den i go taiwan first

[b]Saint Nick[/c] Chapter 6 Of Humanity,The Lust says:
give me the deed to your hse

"And i thank the lord still..." says:
u pay de rest kay??

[b]Saint Nick[/c] Chapter 6 Of Humanity,The Lust says:
i mortgage your hse first?

"And i thank the lord still..." says:
erm

[b]Saint Nick[/c] Chapter 6 Of Humanity,The Lust says:
then i redeem for you later

"And i thank the lord still..." says:
also can
but u must give mi ur house deed first and all ur family's money

[b]Saint Nick[/c] Chapter 6 Of Humanity,The Lust says:
ok,final deal is this,we use your ah ma's hse as a deposit
we go mortgage

"And i thank the lord still..." says:
tat one u 100% gain i loss it a good idea
kay
den u book
i pay u later
go tis site book

[b]Saint Nick[/c] Chapter 6 Of Humanity,The Lust says:
you must book first,cos i need go pack and change taiwan currency

"And i thank the lord still..." says:
www.tube8.com/please.let.mi.book.an.airticket.plus.free.sex
best site to book

[b]Saint Nick[/c] Chapter 6 Of Humanity,The Lust says:
ok,you got the site alrdy you go book first

"And i thank the lord still..." says:
fish and chip cheap and good

[b]Saint Nick[/c] Chapter 6 Of Humanity,The Lust says:
i'll change the currency,so i handle all our meals and everything there

"And i thank the lord still..." says:
set mah
fish and chip cheap and good
fish and chip cheap and good
fish and chip cheap and good
fish and chip cheap and good
fish and chip cheap and good
fish and chip cheap and good
fish and chip cheap and good
fish and chip cheap and good
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fish and chip cheap and good
fish and chip cheap and good
fish and chip cheap and good

fish and chip cheap and good
fish and chip cheap and good
fish and chip cheap and good
fish and chip cheap and good
fish and chip cheap and good
fish and chip cheap and good
fish and chip cheap and good
fish and chip cheap and good
fish and chip cheap and good
fish and chip cheap and good
fish and chip cheap and good
fish and chip cheap and good
fish and chip cheap and good

[b]Saint Nick[/c] Chapter 6 Of Humanity,The Lust says:
ok this is going on the blog

"And i thank the lord still..." says:
fish and chip cheap and good
fish and chip cheap and good
fish and chip cheap and good
fish and chip cheap and good
fish and chip cheap and good
fish and chip cheap and good
fish and chip cheap and good
fish and chip cheap and good
fish and chip cheap and good
fish and chip cheap and good
fish and chip cheap and good
fish and chip cheap and good
fish and chip cheap and good

[b]Saint Nick[/c] Chapter 6 Of Humanity,The Lust says:
im calling it,"taiwan debate'

"And i thank the lord still..." says:
hahar
set luh

As you can tell,towards the end he starts going damn random,but in the end..none of us go to go to taiwan..=(

2009-09-11T05:01:00.000-07:00

Today went out with ch =D went to watch Gforce..last night shouldn't have slept so late =.= i 6am then sleep,then still quite tired this morning,the show..ok ok lorh,i was trying to laugh for most of it larh,but it's worth watching to me. Some disney thing+ some transformers = Gforce!! So then after tat wah..spent $15 go pia arcade catch one stitch for ch,my original plan was $5 only,then CMI so increase lorh..then call the bluez guy help me change to the damn transparant earstick then home liao,in all,a good day =D
The 6th chapter of humanity,the lust.

2009-09-10T10:08:00.001-07:00

To sleep so little and wake up late,
To love so much and get back hate.
Everything seems clearer in the night,i've realised..hmm..dunno why? Everything seems easier to understand,as if seeing it from a different view.
On a lighter note,watching G Force tmr,w00ts.
Enjoy life,Have no regrets.

2009-09-10T02:14:00.001-07:00

Long time no update..hmm..let me recall..
TUESDAY:
Woke up bout sometime between 11-12? Then received a call from zk,then slowlyyy changed,brushed teeth and bussed down to meet yan zhi,zi qian and zk.Then we saw this damn big NERF gun,damn effing cool,but the price even more cool,$79.90 =.= then still considering whether to bring that home anot.Then yan and zq had to go cos of tuition and piano lessons o.O So me and zk went to eat,then walked around for awhile..then called see who want come out,then in the end,bussed down to vincent's hse =D So damn funny there,i suan his hse and him til damn jialat,then stay his hse there play card play com,and realised,zk msn only has 15ppl?! how he stay online so late one?? Then after that went home lerh while zk went jp change his earstick,actually want follow one,but then he dun want wait awhile more i go take my money =.= Then after that can't rmb liao.

WEDNESDAY:
Woken up by zk's call,then realised that my earhole closed cos the stick drop out,like WTF? So went to go pierce again,went THE BLUEZ,there damn good lorh,the person so nice lorh,then pierce again,then saw alot ppl there,then saw ******* working there again,then saw yy some dragonboaters,the most sian part come alrdy,we had to like slack for 3hours liddat there =.= then walk in circles alrdy still keep walking and walking and walking and walking and finally 6+ he go meet his cuz i go find ch,then watched her eat KFC,then sent her home then some stuff happened which i feel really wasted all my time and effort til now. Then i walked home =D

THURSDAY:
Today very good,stay home the whole day,but then again i woke up at like 1+ then watched tv,practiced my piano,FINALLY,i learned how to play the whole song SHA SHOU,wonder who will be the first person i play for ;D Then buy lunch,ate,slacked awhile more then slept again XD tilll NOW.Then updating lorh. Wondering who wants to go swimming this saturday or sunday pia lap+play one,dunno? asking later bah..

Bittersweet endings

Sha Shou(again) cos to celebrate i learned how to play the whole song =D

jue dui wan mei de yi shuang shou
bu liu han ye bu fa duo
jiao cha zai wei xiao de bei hou
an chang wei sian de lun guo
zai ni zhui fang song de shi huo
zue bu dai zhe ren he gan qing jiu xia shou
cong lai bu hui tou
kai shi de gan jue
bu hui dong
bu hui dong
fang da de dong kong
jiu xiang zuo meng
xin fu de cuo jue
hen wei he
hen bao rong
ye xu hai qi dai
zhe shi zi ming de chong dong
ni bu dong
wo bu dong
jiu jin sha shou wei shen me chui zai
ying wei ai
hai shi wei zi de wei lai
xin qing fang song yao bai
zhan ni san bai li zhi wan wai
suan zhe xin diao dei dai
shuo you nian tou cuan bao kai
chuan jin lai
jin lai
zhe mei li de bei ai
zhe shi ai
jiu shi ai
chuan shi jie dou bu ming bai
xin qing fang song yao bai
zhan ni san bai li zhi wan wai
gan jue ji e nan nai
xu yao ni zhen man kong bai
chuan jin lai
jin lai
zhen mei yi de bei ai
zhe shi ai
jiu shi ai
zhi you ni ming bai
jue dui wan mei de yi shuang shou
bu liu han ye bu fa duo
jiao cha zai wei xiao de bei hou
an chang wei sian de lun guo
zai ni zhui fang song de shi huo
zue bu dai zhe ren he gan qing jiu xia shou
cong lai bu hui tou
kai shi de gan jue
bu hui dong
bu hui dong
fang da de dong kong
jiu xiang zuo meng
xin fu de cuo jue
hen wei he
hen bao rong
ye xu hai qi dai
zhe shi zi ming de chong dong
ni bu dong
wo bu dong
jiu jin sha shou wei shen me chui zai
ying wei ai
hai shi wei zi de wei lai
xin qing fang song yao bai
zhan ni san bai li zhi wan wai
suan zhe xin diao dei dai
shuo you nian tou cuan bao kai
chuan jin lai
jin lai
zhe mei li de bei ai
zhe shi ai
jiu shi ai
chuan shi jie dou bu ming bai
xin qing fang song yao bai
zhan ni san bai li zhi wan wai
gan jue ji e nan nai
xu yao ni zhen man kong bai
chuan jin lai
jin lai
zhen mei yi de bei ai
zhe shi ai
jiu shi ai
zhi you ni ming bai
xin qing fang song yao bai
zhan ni san bai li zhi wan wai
suan zhe xin diao dei dai
shuo you nian tou cuan bao kai
chuan jin lai
jin lai
zhe mei li de bei ai
zhe shi ai
jiu shi ai
chuan shi jie dou bu ming bai
xin qing fang song yao bai
zhan ni san bai li zhi wan wai
gan jue ji e nan nai
xu yao ni zhen man kong bai
chuan jin lai
jin lai
zhen mei yi de bei ai
zhe shi ai
jiu shi ai
zhi you ni ming bai

2009-09-07T11:52:00.000-07:00

Sian..going to ton the night,movie-ing now,american pie is seriously fucking funny,9/10. after that still go so many movies..sian..
Fear,Panic,Mercy And Peace~

2009-09-07T05:25:00.000-07:00

lazy to take pics nowadays..today went phy remedial tio scolded for dunno what =.= lazy care also,then went jp eat breakfast,pon maths cos is so fucking boring,then waited for the bluez to open,then at first me and zk want go pierce ear one,then i see him pierce like so obvious,then i decided to ask my dad first,so only he pierce first,i tmr then go,so then we went my hse there play lorh,play carpark one again,damn fun with 7ppl,zk nvr play cos he dun want sweat =.= then play awhile go buy drink rest then zk want go back my hse liao,then go lorh,play poker again,then discovered mok's phone got SO MUCH uhh..i censor.PRAWN,his phone got 34vids at least half is all PRAWN,then we play halfway yan on PRAWN put in the middle of the cards =.= then play awhile go downstairs eat,then me zk,zq went to jp,slacked there awhile,then zq left first,me and zk go walk around,saw one fake ribena,then also saw ******* then me zk saw her zao geng again,this time see til damn jialat,can see the butt =D then i went buy one belt,knn 34.95 plus the leather belt,then zk went find his uncle,i wait for my belt be ready then bused home alone =(

2009-09-06T08:36:00.001-07:00

Just another puppet on a lonely string.

2009-09-06T06:01:00.000-07:00

No photos again today..cos of the place i went =D Tired like fuck liddat today,9am wake up liao,then started my movie marathon which i decided i would start every sunday,then watch til bout 2 then vince msn me go swimming,then i sian sian boh bian then go lorh,then took 187 with him then went jurong east there swim,more of play larh.Then changed then he fucking noob tio pwn by the locker,there put "faulty" he put in MY 40cents then cannot use or come out,then we went to find yanzi,ziqian,kianbeng,kahfai,yuxian,then later yong yao came,then we play lorh,the slide damn fun,the blue one not as fun as the yellow one,then we play til bout 5plus,then ate KFC,then homed with vincent again,lazy go find zk =.= cos alrdy quite tired liao then tmr still going play parkour catching again so went home sleep first =.= again,homed the time so nice,6.16 =D then went to continue my marathon of movies.
Tmr got remedial..sian..

2009-09-05T07:43:00.001-07:00

Today was boring..May have made a mistake i regretted today..who cares anyway,so just now went eat secret recipe,pls,dun eat it,taste like shit liddat the food,ate halfway no appetite liao,then went downstairs there eat the almond paste damn nice..then slowly homed..bored like shit sia..Tired also..of everything.

2009-09-05T04:33:00.000-07:00

Well, now
If little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me
for I shall already have forgotten you

— Pablo Neruda, If you forget me

I will not settle for anything lesser.

2009-09-04T06:08:00.000-07:00

Today photos in vincent phone,will go coup from him later..Today was our debate,and we lost..=( but then again we against faye edna fowler chiew =.= Lucky i didn't try to hard anyway,and vincent had a blank foolscap for his speech.Plus we didn't have or know what's a reply speaker,sooo i won the scissors paper stone for like dunno how long =D Well anyway we lost so yeah,budden Me and yan have to be the MC and timekeeper for the big one in the hall =.= So maths was a total diaster and i've decided to pon the maths one in the holis cos i can't take it liao,still going to phy tho. Then after sch today went to colour hair with zk,went with vincent first,then mok,yan and zq,standard,then colour lerh,at first my not obvious one,then is go sun damn bloody obvious the red part.Then went to eat the best prawn noodles in sg!! damn fucking nice,then i hero go eat one scoop of chili,now my stomach pain like fuck.homed after that cos no one want go out,then bathed,sleep til damn shiok sia,til i woke up that time i thought morning liao =.= then no one home again..then have to eat dinner myself..so i cooked my famous egg omelette. so tired..back to sleep ^^

鬼打牆
Gui Da Qiang
Artist: Xiao Gui (小鬼-黃鴻升)

Lyric @ http://5566lyrics.blogsome.com

yi tian yi ye mei you
wei jie lai dian
mei ci jie qi lai
que dou zhi shi huan jue
hao xiang ni de jian
xun you qu wu hui
zai gao shen me gui

wo xiang mi le lu
de gu hun ye gui
ban ye san dian zhong
hai meng you zai cha jie
hen hen bei ji bai
de gu du bai lei
ren ge kuai fen lie

bu yao yi zhi ba wo dang xiao gui
wo liu de bu zhi you leng xie
wo ye you wo zhi ming de si xue
bie yi wei wo wu suo wei

* gui da qiang de yue da yue qiang
de wo de xin zang
zhe yi miao tu ran ni zheng ge mei li
na yi zhong tong tong qi lai yao ren ming
zhi you ni neng rang wo hu xi /

gui da qiang de pin ming pin ming
pin ming de zhao ni
dao na li dou gang shang tong qiang tie bi
mei xiang dao ni gen wo lai ying peng ying
yi chu shou jiu huo huo bei wo
yi qiang bi ming

(Repeat All)

(Repeat *)

gui da qiang de pin ming pin ming
pin ming de zhao ni
dao na li dou gang shang tong qiang tie bi
zi yi wei mei you shen me gao bu ding
mei liao dao zhe yi ci zai zai
ni shou zhang xin

2009-09-03T06:11:00.001-07:00

Dunno got some prob the photo of the day cannot take..then today ok lorh,got back SS and history,actually got back all lerh.Suck like hell but better then last time lerh.
ENG:VR
MATHS:13/40 (FLUNK)
CHINESE:28/60 (PLUS THE COMPRE TEACHER SAID WILL PLUS,PASS)
SCI-CHEM:20/30(PASS)
SCI-PHY:15/30(SUCKY PASS)
SOCIAL STUDIES:11/25(FLUNK)
HISTORY:16/25(PASS)
POA:23/35(PASS)
D&T:VR
So basically still sucks,but improve can liao =D just work harder next time,then realised that today history i get 16 SS i get 11,then yijing opposite,he history get 11 then SS get 16,so our combined humans same,random i know.Then after sch today realised that tmr someone is working but i dun want to bother,so then went to jp with zk and zq,then went to collect his specs but they say only arrive at 5+,so we go slack and eat first..then we went to buy BICYCLE playing cards,poker one,just a very good brand,it was the photo of the day then cannot transfer somehow.Then zq went home then we slacked til 4.40 liddat collect his specs then went his hse down there the mac slacked somemore,then cos hisuncle bothering him,then left earlier.Then homed liao lorh.SIANNN,tmr alot maths homework i all havn't do yet then i dun have the textbook,I HATE MS NEO,CURSE YOU NBCB TO FUCKING HELL GIVE US ALL THIS CRAP,going to pon your lousy holi remedial..bullshit. Anyway on to nicer stuff,NEXT mon so far those who confirmed going my hse there play one ARE
1)Tan Zhee Kong
2)Vincent Yeo Cheow Sern
3)Tan Yan Zhi
4)Pang Zi Qian
5)Ng Kian Beng
6)Mok Zhi Xiang
7)ME
So so far got 7 damn fun liao,then must rmb bring T-Shirt cos fucking hot.

Sha Shou By JJ Lin

jue dui wan mei de yi shuang shou
bu liu han ye bu fa duo
jiao cha zai wei xiao de bei hou
an chang wei sian de lun guo
zai ni zhui fang song de shi huo
zue bu dai zhe ren he gan qing jiu xia shou
cong lai bu hui tou
kai shi de gan jue
bu hui dong
bu hui dong
fang da de dong kong
jiu xiang zuo meng
xin fu de cuo jue
hen wei he
hen bao rong
ye xu hai qi dai
zhe shi zi ming de chong dong
ni bu dong
wo bu dong
jiu jin sha shou wei shen me chui zai
ying wei ai
hai shi wei zi de wei lai
xin qing fang song yao bai
zhan ni san bai li zhi wan wai
suan zhe xin diao dei dai
shuo you nian tou cuan bao kai
chuan jin lai
jin lai
zhe mei li de bei ai
zhe shi ai
jiu shi ai
chuan shi jie dou bu ming bai
xin qing fang song yao bai
zhan ni san bai li zhi wan wai
gan jue ji e nan nai
xu yao ni zhen man kong bai
chuan jin lai
jin lai
zhen mei yi de bei ai
zhe shi ai
jiu shi ai
zhi you ni ming bai
jue dui wan mei de yi shuang shou
bu liu han ye bu fa duo
jiao cha zai wei xiao de bei hou
an chang wei sian de lun guo
zai ni zhui fang song de shi huo
zue bu dai zhe ren he gan qing jiu xia shou
cong lai bu hui tou
kai shi de gan jue
bu hui dong
bu hui dong
fang da de dong kong
jiu xiang zuo meng
xin fu de cuo jue
hen wei he
hen bao rong
ye xu hai qi dai
zhe shi zi ming de chong dong
ni bu dong
wo bu dong
jiu jin sha shou wei shen me chui zai
ying wei ai
hai shi wei zi de wei lai
xin qing fang song yao bai
zhan ni san bai li zhi wan wai
suan zhe xin diao dei dai
shuo you nian tou cuan bao kai
chuan jin lai
jin lai
zhe mei li de bei ai
zhe shi ai
jiu shi ai
chuan shi jie dou bu ming bai
xin qing fang song yao bai
zhan ni san bai li zhi wan wai
gan jue ji e nan nai
xu yao ni zhen man kong bai
chuan jin lai
jin lai
zhen mei yi de bei ai
zhe shi ai
jiu shi ai
zhi you ni ming bai
xin qing fang song yao bai
zhan ni san bai li zhi wan wai
suan zhe xin diao dei dai
shuo you nian tou cuan bao kai
chuan jin lai
jin lai
zhe mei li de bei ai
zhe shi ai
jiu shi ai
chuan shi jie dou bu ming bai
xin qing fang song yao bai
zhan ni san bai li zhi wan wai
gan jue ji e nan nai
xu yao ni zhen man kong bai
chuan jin lai
jin lai
zhen mei yi de bei ai
zhe shi ai
jiu shi ai
zhi you ni ming bai

2009-09-02T03:11:00.000-07:00

Second day of coming my hse?Today's visitors wereee zk,mok,vince. fucking awesome =D First went up there then slack slack play poker,then zk go dig my lego =.= then we go play parkour carpark catching again,cept this time plus one more person more fun,plus we play roof so got more places hide,then come up mok damn lucky when playing poker and taiti(dunno how spell) Then play,then they take my cup noodles fucking hell,then they went home bout 6+ then no one want go anywhre slack cos they not free,then updating now lorh..
I still miss you..

Say Goodnight By The Click Five

Our seperation has it's faults
but I don't wanna leave it all
so write the letters in teary ink
I just need some time to think
and I just need some time to breathe

baby just say goodnight
I'll be gone tomorrow
baby just close your eyes
I can't take the sorrow
baby just walk away
you know I can't stay
there's no easy way to say goodbye
so baby just say goodnight

we're in a spell that never ends
the empty hourglass wore me thin
so let the phone do it's work
your voice is heavenly
but it hurts
your words are memories
but they burn

baby just say goodnight
I'll be gone tomorrow
baby just close your eyes
I can't take the sorrow
baby just walk away
you know I can't stay
there's no easy way to say goodbye
so baby just say goodnight

baby don't say goodbye
baby just close your eyes
and dream,tomorrow's on it's way
so just walk away

baby just say goodnight
I'll be gone tomorrow
baby just close your eyes
I can't take the sorrow
baby just walk away
you know I can't stay
there's no easy way to say goodbye
so baby just say goodnight

baby just say goodnight

2009-09-01T08:45:00.000-07:00

This post is to settle everything.
To:LCH
I hope you see this soon cos i can't take it anymore,i can't take being second to all your friends and always having something more important then me to you.Im tired alrdy.
It's just not meant to be this way i guess.

2009-09-01T06:49:00.000-07:00

Standing at the crossroads,shouting into the wind for a breaking heart

2009-09-01T04:17:00.000-07:00

Today was a ok day..cept was wondering why it wasn't spent with a certain someone instead..do you know what it feels like to give up hope completely? Nvm that,today went to jp to make zk's specs,then the person very nice sia,zk will get it ;D Then here i must add the bastard was late for 1 1/2 hour,we supposed to meet at 10am,then he nvr wake up =.= then me yan and zq went to eat,zq had a fucked up day,he lost his phone,found it after walking thru buses(i was with him =.=) then steped in shit even tho he saw me avoiding it,nearly spiled his milo at the breakfast and he had tuition later,i take the time now to promote the KFC breakfast is fucking awesome.Then went arcade play til zk come,then make specs,then we went MYUK make wallet sia =D now me zk got the same wallet but with diff colour(Mine Above). Then went to long john they eat again and since vince nvr bring my 20dollars i was broke to hell. Then yan and zk came my hse we play a mixture of piano,guitar,poker,TV and drank carrot juice with vodka.And i shot zk's eye too,photo above =D. Then went the carpark there play parkour catching,ran around jumping thru the ramp while playing catching,FUCKING AWESOME GAME,holding another round next week,need more ppl,3 too little liao.Then went up watch youtube vids slacked more then went out,yan went home,me and zk went jp there walk around,then we saw ms koh sia! she wear home clothes look damn chio XD then we call her she diao us and give us some face,went to look for someone but failed,yan knows best for this ;D then i went there sit there see zk eat long john again =.= Then homed liao,then i reached home see the time so nice,7.17,rmb one joke zk told me,then went to update first..tired like hell..all in all..awesome day. Cheers~

Angels By Within Temptation
Sparkling angel I believe
You were my savior in my time of need.
Blinded by faith I couldn't hear
All the whispers, the warnings so clear.
I see the angels,
I'll lead them to your door.
There's no escape now,
No mercy no more.
No remorse cause I still remember

The smile when you tore me apart.
You took my heart,
Deceived me right from the start.
You showed me dreams,
I wished they'd turn into real.
You broke a promise and made me realize.
It was all just a lie.

Sparkling angel, I couldn't see
Your dark intentions, your feelings for me.
Fallen angel, tell me why?
What is the reason, the thorn in your eye?
I see the angels,
I'll lead them to your door
There's no escape now
No mercy no more
No remorse cause I still remember

The smile when you tore me apart
You took my heart,
Deceived me right from the start.
You showed me dreams,
I wished they'd turn into real.
You broke a promise and made me realize.
It was all just a lie.
Could have been forever.
Now we have reached the end.

This world may have failed you,
It doesn't give you reason why.
You could have chosen a different path in life.

The smile when you tore me apart.
You took my heart,
Deceived me right from the start.
You showed me dreams,
I wished they'd turn into real.
You broke a promise and made me realize.
It was all just a lie.
Could have been forever.
Now we have reached the end.

PS:Mrs ng is back..

2009-08-31T07:16:00.000-07:00

Today tcher's day was a joke,then was a horrible day on the sidelines also..then after sch went to eat some great cheese fries that zk said but closed cos they fasting. Then we saw a masturbating cat,then zk so nice sia,go buy food for it,then we slacked at bubbletea shop awhile,then go jp play arcade,then go watch where got ghost again =.= then they homed,i slacked at the lib awhile then homed.

Heartless lyrics
Songwriters: West, Kanye
In the night I hear 'em talk, the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road he lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless?
How could you be so heartless?

How could you be so cold?
As the winter wind when it breeze yo
Just remember that you talkin' to me though
You need to watch the way you talkin' to me though

I mean after all the things that we've been through
I mean after all the things we got into
Hey yo, I know of some things that you ain't told me
Hey yo, I did some things but that's the old me

And now you wanna get me back and you gon' show me
So you walk around like you don't know me
You got a new friend, well I got homies
But in the end it's still so lonely

In the night I hear 'em talk, the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road he lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless?
How could you be so heartless?

How could be so Dr. Evil?
You're bringin' out a side of me that I don't know
I decided we wasn't goin' speak so
Why we up 3 a.m. on the phone?

Why does she be so mad at me for?
Homie, I don't know, she's hot and cold
I won't stop, won't mess my groove up
'Cause I already know how this thing go

You run and tell your friends that you're leavin' me
They say that they don't see what you see in me
You wait a couple months then you gon' see
You'll never find nobody better than me

In the night I hear 'em talk, the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road he lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless?
How could you be so heartless?

Talkin', talkin', talkin' talk
Baby let's just knock it off
They don't know what we been through
They don't know 'bout me and you

So I got somethin' new to see
And you just gon' keep hatin' me
And we just gon' be enemies

I know you can't believe
I could just leave it wrong
And you can't make it right
I'm gon' take off tonight
Into the night

In the night I hear 'em talk, the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road he lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless?
How could you be so heartless?

2009-08-30T08:53:00.000-07:00

Does anyone know the pain inside?
The insecurities lying low,
The pain under every smile,
The heartache under every laugh
The loneliness within every joke
The Heartbreak with every truth uncovered
The hopelessness with every look
The Despair with every tear
And The Need For Some Care With Every Day?

2009-08-30T08:25:00.000-07:00

Stayed home the whole day today..so guai hor? so dl movie held marathon,watch final destination 4,saw 1,2,3 damn nice..next week horror marathon,but be4 that..next fri go colouring hair with zk =D see what going to happen bah..tmr be yourself day..just nvr plan be4 hand but me and zk wearing all black so i just gonna take the first black shirt i see in in the morn lorh.

Zi Dan Lie Che By JJ Lin

子彈列車
Zi Dan Lie Che
Bullet Train
這城市跟贪婪之間零差到處佇立冰冷
zhi cheng shi gen tan lan zhi jian ling shi cha | dao chu zhu li bing leng
This city has no time-difference with the lazy | everywhere you look or stand it ice cold
金属的大厦爱這個字變超現實的比划
jin shu de da sha ai zhe ge zhi bian chao xian shi de bi hua
The metal mansions loves this word which changes into real strokes
它是少數人才有的密碼
ta shi shao shu ren cai you de mi ma
It is a number person, so that is why it has a secret
地平線的坐標很數學的線條關於我的大腦在抽象思考
di ping xian de zuo biao hen shu xiao de xian tiao guan wu wo de da nao zai cou xiang si kao
The horizon’s coordiate is like a maths streak regarding my brain’s abstract thoughts
宇宙間的頻道發出什麼訊號是否重要到底誰知道
yu zhou jian de pin dao fa chu shen me xun hao | shi fou zhong yao dao di shui zhi dao
The frequency of outer space sends out what signal? | Whether or not it’s important, who knows?
遠離人潮我在祈禱練習微笑的礼貌
yuan li ren chao wo zai qi qiao lian xi wei xiao de li mao
Removed from man’s tide I pray whilst practicing smiling for manners
夜色籠罩的隧道看不到炫耀
ye se long zhao de sxui dao kan bu dao xuan yao
The tunnel surrounding the colour of night, can not see the talent
乘坐子彈列車我跟未来在親熱
cheng zuo zhi dan lie che | wo gen wei lai zai qin re
Riding in a bullet train | I, with my future beloved
前方難以預測跟第一時間在拉扯
qian fang nan yi ye ce | gen di yi shi jian zai la che
Hard to predict ahead | fighting with the number 1 time
乘坐子彈列車如教徒般的狂熱
cheng zuo zhi dan lie che | ru jiao tu ban de kuang re
Riding in a bullet train | If disciples sort out crazes
我對希望執著虔誠的很快樂
wo dui xi wang zhi zhuo qian cheng de hen quai le
My attachment towards hope will sincerely be very happy
這個區域是非人类的住家街道銀幕上的
zhe ge qu yu shi fei ren lei de zhu jia jie dao shang de
This quarrels of this region, the place of living for mankind
街道銀幕上的畫面在說話
jie dao jin mu shang de hua mian zai shuo hua
The picture frames of shadows on the streets are talking
計算機與人性相處的很尴尬
ji suan ji yu ren xing xiang chu de hen gan ga
Calculators together with humans get along with each other awkwardly
從上世紀就開始在摩擦
cong shang shi ji jiu kai shi zai mo ca
From last century, friction already started
再多的按鍵也無法改变气候的芯片
zai duo de an jian ye wu fa gai bian qi hou de xin pian
Again many pressed keys, are also incapable of changing their chips
四季鮮艷寒冷的溫度已擱淺再上岸的
si ji xian yan han leng de wen du yi ge jian/qian zai shang an de
The bright coloured four seasons, the cold temperature, already stop them ??
再上岸的就是春天不用实验
zai shang an de jiu shi qun tian bu yong shi yan
Again, above the bank is spring, without experiment

2009-08-29T04:42:00.000-07:00

So many people,all with their own lives,destinies,yet all washed away by time..
Today was ok..wanted to go carpark there one train parkour =D,but left to tmr..so went to great world city,where the photo above was taken..went there emo alone,then eat there the prata..knn,one prata with egg = 1.80 wtf? no wonder vanita said flipping prata can be rich one..but to be fair,the prata was fucking awesome,if there was a perfect prata,it would start there.Then walked around til bout 6+..pro hor? can walk so long alone..then homed liao..then updating lorh..tmr sure go carpark there play one. Mon seems depressing..so let me share my thoughts which have no link whatsoever.
What does it mean to love? Does it mean having to be with the person? does it have to mean any physical intercourse? To me,it means seeing the person alive and happy. When you love someone,it's as simple as that,you may not be with the person,but you can tell yourself,"at least i can see their smile,at least they're alive and happy" The last person you think of before you sleep,the first person you think of when you wake up,the person you pray for at church,the person who you will sacrifice anything for,the person who with a smile can make your day so much better,that even when they shout at you..you won't be angry,you'll be concerned bout why. A quote i read says "Love is giving the last chocolate in the box to the person" if it were me,i'll leave the whole box,just to see that smile.

2009-08-28T08:30:00.001-07:00

No photos today..=( overslept today..woke up at 7.50..didn't want to go one at first budden stay home more sian,so went lorh..then sian the whole day..then went to bank with zk and vince..some bastard scold us there..then later go oppo there drink bubble tea slack awhile..then saw alot hua yi girl sia..then later go the haircut there slack awhile..the uncle damn fun lorh,then saw the lao ban niang,then zk got tuition then i homed liao..

Hui Du Shu By JJ Lin

燈　不能熄滅　熬過今夜　就能從書中逃回到　這個世界
deng buneng ximie, ao guo jin ye jiu neng cong shu zhong tao hui dao zhe ge shijie
Can’t turn out the light. Staying up late tonight so I can escape from the books to this world.

我　我不明白　這個年代　怎麼還能說讀好書　就會發財　好呆
wo wo bu mingbai zhe ge niandai zenme hai neng shuo du hao shu jiu hui facai hao dai
*I can’t understand this generation. How can they say that a good education guarantees wealth? How stupid!

愛我的爸　疼我的媽　說了那麼多你們明白嗎
ai wo de ba teng wo de ma shuo le name duo nimen mingbai ma
My father who loves me, my mother who dotes on me, I’ve said a lot; Do you understand?

不是要反抗　只是要你看　我不滿的地方
bu shi yao fankang zhi shi yao ni kan wo bu man de difang
I’m not rebelling; I just want you to realize my grievances.

＃讀讀讀讀讀到書都想吐　好想哭
du du du du du dao shu dou xiang tu hao xiang ku
# Study (5x) until even my books feel sick; I really want to cry!

怕怕怕怕怕　老是背書　好白痴
pa pa pa pa pa laoshi bei shu hao baichi
Afraid (5x) Always memorizing/carrying books; How silly!

你你你你你　只會說你要第一　我就快要發羊癲瘋
ni ni ni ni ni zhi hui shuo ni yao di yi wo jiu kuai yao fa yang dian feng
You (5x) You’re only concerned about being number one; I’m going crazy!

不是每個人都會讀書　會讀書　不厲害讀書也不一定就會輸
bu shi mei ge ren dou hui dushu hui dushu bu lihai dushu ye bu yiding jiu hui shu
Not everyone can study well, can study well. One who doesn’t excel in school is not necessarily a loser.

不是想要說我會讀書　不在乎　我只想要　你能清楚
bu shi xiang yao shuo wo hui dushu bu zaihu wo zhi xiang yao ni neng qingchu
I don’t want to say I will study. I don’t care; I just want it to be clear to you.

我　我不明白　這個年代　怎麼還能說讀好書　就會發財　好呆
wo wo bu mingbai zhe ge niandai zenme hai neng shuo du hao shu jiu hui facai hao dai
*I can’t understand this generation. How can they say that a good education guarantees wealth? How stupid!

愛我的爸　疼我的媽　說了那麼多你們明白嗎
ai wo de ba teng wo de ma shuo le name duo nimen mingbai ma
My father who loves me, my mother who dotes on me, I’ve said a lot; Do you understand?

不是要反抗　只是要你看　我不滿的地方
bu shi yao fankang zhi shi yao ni kan wo bu man de difang
I’m not rebelling; I just want you to realize my grievances

2009-08-27T02:50:00.000-07:00

Today was a ok day? got back chem and POA,got a 20/30 for chem..T.T one more mark A2,then not bad lerh sia..highest 25.5/30..plus i still got star =D then POA got 23/35..lousy like shit,nvm..next time try harder can liao. Then zk's test paper above,easy to tell how much he got? XD then after sch went out with zk,yj buy his guitar hero,then slacked outside there paste stickers,then went up the blog there try parkour..think i damn fail sia,at first dare not jump when i look from top,then from down look then not as high then jump,video with yi jing and zk,then slacked outside there awhile again then homed..actually want go see zk's hse one but too tired and lazy..so homed..now updating..sian..

If I Never See Your Face Again Lyrics By Maroon 5

Now as the summer fades
I let you slip away
You say I'm not your type
But I can make you sway

It makes me burn to learn
You're not the only one
I'd let you be if you
Put down your blazing gun

[Chorus:]
Now you've gone somewhere else
Far away
I don't know if I will find you (find you, find you)
But you feel my breath
On your neck
Can't believe I'm right behind you (right behind you)
'Cause you keep me coming back for more
And I feel a little better than I did before
And if I never see your face again
I don't mind
'Cause we gone much further than I thought we'd get tonight

Sometimes you move so well
It's hard not to give in
I'm lost, I can't tell
Where you end and I begin

It makes you burn to learn
I'm with another man
I wonder if he's half
The lover that I am

[Chorus]

Baby, baby
Please believe me
Find it in your heart to reach me
Promise not to leave me behind
(Promise not to leave me behind)

Take me down, but take it easy
Make me think but don't deceive me
Torture me by taking your time
(Talk to me, talk to me)

[x2]
'Cause you keep me coming back for more
And I feel a little better than I did before
And if I never see your face again
I don't mind
'Cause we gone much further than I thought we'd get tonight

2009-08-26T05:00:00.000-07:00

And It's Still So Lonely..

Went for piano lessons today cos got nth to do then zk die also won't come out..sch was ok..chem was quite ok? Phy i give up hope one,anyhow do then directly sleep,got woken up by vanita cos mok and yong yao cena caught cheating...=.= lameee..then after sch sian sian again..then homed,sleep awhile then lessons. then stopped by the playground play awhile..now let me ask you smart ppl,when was the last time you just went to the playground to just forget everything? so went there slide slide swing swing then homed..

一群嗜血的蚂蚁被腐肉所吸引
yi qun shi xue de ma yi bei fu rou suo xi yin
A crowd of bloodthirsty ants are drawn by rotting flesh

我面无表情看孤独的风景
wo mian wu biao qing kan gu du de feng jing
I watch the lonely scenery with an expressionless face

失去你　爱恨开始分明
shi qu ni / ai hen kai shi fen ming
Having lost you, love and hate becomes clear

失去你　还有什么事好关心
shi qu ni / hai you shen me shi hao guan xin
Having lost you, is there anything left to care about

当鸽子不再象征和平
dang ge zi bu zai xiang zheng he ping
When the doves no longer represent peace

我终于被提醒　广场上喂食的是秃鹰
wo zhong yu bei ti xing / guang chang shang wei shi de shi tu ying
I've finally been reminded, that those feeding in the plaza are, in fact, vultures,

我用漂亮的押韵形容被掠夺一空的爱情
wo yong piao liang de ya yun xing rong bei lue duo yi kong de ai qing
I use beautiful rhymes to describe a love that has been plundered empty

啊乌云开始遮蔽夜色不干净
ah / wu yun kai shi zhe bi / ye se bu gan jing
Ah, black clouds begin to obstruct [the sky], the color of the night is unclean

公园里葬礼的回音在漫天飞行
gong yuan li zang li de hui yin / zai man tian fei xing
Echoes of that funeral in the park, are flying all through the sky

送你的白色玫瑰在纯黑的环境凋零
song ni de bai se mei gui / zai chun hei de huan jing diao ling
The white rose that [ I ] gave to you has withered in this environment of pure darkness

乌鸦在树枝上诡异的很安静　　
wu ya zai shu zi shang gui yi de hen an jing
On branches, the silence of the crows creates a surreal atmosphere

静静听　我黑色的大衣　想温暖你
jing jing ting / wo hei se de da yi / xiang wen nuan ni
Listening quietly, my black overcoat yearns to provide you warmth

日渐冰冷的回忆走过的走过的生命
ri jian bing leng de hui yi / zou guo de zou guo de sheng ming
A memory that grows colder with each passing day, a life that's gone,

啊~四周弥漫雾气
ah ~si zhou mi man wu qi
Ah, fog fills the air all around

啊~我在空旷的墓地
ah ~wo zai kong kuang de mu di
Ah, I am in an open cemetery

老去后还爱你
lao qu hou hai ai ni
[ I will ] still love you after I've aged

为你弹奏萧邦的夜曲
wei ni tan zou xiao bang de ye qu
For you [ I ] play Chopin's Nocturne

纪念我死去的爱情
ji nian wo si qu de ai qing
To commemorate this deceased love of mine

跟夜风一样的声音
gen ye feng yi yang de sheng yin
Just like a wind in the night

心碎的很好听
xin sui de hen hao ting
So heartbreakingly beautiful

手在键盘敲很轻
shou zai jian pan qiao hen qing
[ I ] gently stroke the keys

我给的思念很小心
wo gei de si nian hen xiao xin
The longing that I gave was very tentative

你埋葬的地方叫幽冥
ni mai zang de di fang jiao you ming
You are buried in a place called the afterlife

为你弹奏萧邦的夜曲
wei ni tan zou xiao bang de ye qu
For you [ I ] play Chopin's Nocturne

纪念我死去的爱情
ji nian wo si qu de ai qing
To commemorate this desceased love of mine

而我为你隐姓埋名
er wo wei ni yin xing mai ming
And for you I've become anonymous

在月光下弹琴
zai yue guang xia tan qin
Playing the piano under the moonlight

对你心跳的感应
dui ni xin tiao de gan ying
The feeling of your heartbeat

还是如此温热清晰
hai shi ru ci wen nuan qing xi
Is still so warm and clear

怀念你那鲜红的唇印
huai nian ni na xian hong de chun yin
I remember the scarlet imprint of you lips

那些断翅的蜻蜓　散落在这森林
na xie duan chi de qing ting / san luo zai zhe sen lin
Those dragonflies who have lost their wings, are scattered in this forest

而我的眼睛　没有丝毫同情
er wo de yan jing / mei you si hao tong qing
And yet my eyes do not show a shred of sympathy

失去你　泪水混浊不清
shi qu ni / lei shui hun zhuo bu qing
Having lost you, my tears are murky and blurred

失去你　我连笑容都有阴影
shi qu ni / wo lian xiao rong dou you yin ying
Having lost you, even my smile holds shadows

风在长满青苔的屋顶
feng zai zhang man qing tai de wu ding
The wind on the moss-covered rooftop

嘲笑我的伤心
chao xiao wo de shang xin
Ridicules my sadness

像一口没有水的枯井
xiang yi ko mei you shui de ku jing
Like a waterless well

我用凄美的字型
wo yong qi mei de zi xing
I use an exquisite font-type

描绘后悔莫及的那爱情
miao hui hou hui mo ji de na ai qing
To depict that love which not even regret will bring back

2009-08-25T02:06:00.000-07:00

Feeling like so zhi bei or smth now? Today SS pwn sia,cos the essay that i memorise come out,so ok lorh,then POA did most stuff correctly i think buy cannot balance..then after sch heard ch got 39/40..then like so depressed sia..then went out with zhee kong,yanzhi,vincent,junhong and bernard go KFC eat,then took bus with zk went back sch first then walked to seow choon there see his guitar hero thing,then bought a mouse pad..then we drink bubble tea sit there slack awhile..he damn lucky sia..cos he saw ____ at the shop there,then he see liao nvr tell me,til left lerh then say..=.= then homed after that..wanted to take the sign home one..from the pic above but very bulky..so by "request" of zk,the song of today is zhu jiao by JJ Lin..dunno the translation correct anot?

林俊杰 - 主角
JJ Lin Jun Jie – Zhu Jiao
专辑：JJ陆
Album : Sixology

金字塔不能没有法老王
jin zi ta bu neng mei you fa lao wang
万里长城不能没有秦始皇
wan li chang cheng bu neng mei you qin shi huang
你们都需要这一堂课
ni men dou xu yao zhe yi tang ke
就像古典音乐需要萧邦
jiu xiang gu dian yin yue xu yao xiao bang
摇滚乐不能没有披头四
yao gun yue bu neng mei you pi tou si
就像Hip-Hop不能没有麻吉帮
jiu xiang hip hop bu neng mei you ma ji bang
这个舞台不能没有人发光
zhe ge wu tai bu neng mei you ren fa guang
所以让我们来点亮
suo yi xian zai rang wo men lai dian liang

这个地方我称王这个地方我释放
zhe ge di fang wo chen wang zhe ge di fang wo shi fang
曾经我对生命对未来对世界也有点迷惘
ceng jing wo dui sheng ming dui wei lai dui shi jie ye you dian mi wang
终于我发现唯一方向找回自我在这舞台上
zhong yu wo fa xian wei yi fang xiang zhao hui zi wo zai zhe wu tai shang

嘀嘀嗒嘀嘀嗒加快心跳
di di ta di di ta jia kuai xin tiao
黑压压黑压压正热闹
ya ya hei ya ya zheng re nao
我们今晚当主角
wo men jin wan dang zhu jiao
劈劈啪劈劈啪不留片甲
pi pi pai pi pi pai bu liu pian jia
霎那那霎那那灯光下
sha na na sha na na deng guang xia
谁领风骚还看今朝
shui ling feng sao hai kan jin chao

甩用力甩用力甩开了单调
shuai yong li shuai yong li shuai kai le dan diao

摇慢慢摇尽情摇(人人都能为自己骄傲)
yao man man yao jin qing yao (ren ren dou neng wei zi ji jiao ao)
爱永远爱这感觉无法取代
ai yong yuan ai zhe gan jue wu fa qu dai
跳心在跳这一秒(High 到最高我今晚当主角)
tiao xin zai tiao zhe yi miao (high dao zui gao wo jin wan dang zhu jiao)

我是加百列属于天堂
wo shi jia bai lie xhu yu tian tang
我是阿姆斯壮需要踏上月亮
wo shi a mu si zhuang xu yao ta shang yue liang
鼓声已敲响
gu sheng yi qiao xiang
箭在弦上聚光灯就是炙热太阳
jian zai xian shang ju guang deng jiu shi zhi re tai yang
我的好戏请你慢慢欣赏
wo de hao xi qing ni man man xin shang
准备好张开我翅膀
zhun bei hao zhang kai wo chi pang
准备好往天空飞翔
zhun bei hao wang tian kong fei xiang

我的宿命已决定方向
wo de su ming yi jue ding fang xiang
我不会停下也不会退让
wo bu hui ting xia ye bu hui tui rang
我是王维属于那故乡
wo shi wang wei shu yu na gu xiang
我是赵云属于沙场
wo shi zhao yun shu yu sha chang
若我是个顽童舞台就是我的游乐场
ruo wo shi ge wan tong wu tai jiu shi wo de you le cheng
台下的掌声给了我力量
tai xia de zhang sheng gei le wo li liang
台上的我因你而坚强
tai shang de wo yin ni er jiang qiang

2009-08-24T08:05:00.000-07:00

A laugh doesn't mean im happy,A smile doesn't mean im not sad inside.
A hug may keep me there for so long,but how long may i last.
When the sun sets,and the stars rise,what do you think about?
And when my sun is lost,im lost with it
and begin looking around for the moon.

2009-08-24T05:14:00.000-07:00

Sian..broke to hell now..cos just now bought one gun cos look damn nice,but then got usb also larh,so i trying to dl the software for it see can play anot..39.90..T.T ok so today maths and history,history same as always memorise so i think can make it but maths sia..3sub questions nvr finish..the rest all know how to do eh =D proud of myself sia..then tmr SS and POA. SS i memorise the essay liao so only poa scared die only..then today after sch had lunch with ch..then went to find zk,second time i saw his "laopo" sia. his bike lorh..it's like the bike of the future one,all the techno stuff strap to the front,then eat mcflury then go back sch with him..then walk back,buy the damn gun..had bubble tea..there one not bad sia. then homed. then now i got like some standard posting,start with photos then end with song lyrics then i ask him what song put today he suggest zhu jiao by jjlin..so..anything lorh,tmr i'll put that but today i want put the song that everyone ask me from my msn display name one "-The Perfect Sky Is Torn" tho got one part of the song is "lying naked on the floor" XD no other meanings,nice song,go listen everyone!

Torn By Natalie Imbruglia
I thought I saw a man brought to life
He was warm, he came around like he was dignified
He showed me what it was to cry
Well you couldnt be that man I adored
You dont seem to know, dont seem to care what your heart is for
But I dont know him anymore
Theres nothing where he used to lie
My conversation has run dry
Thats whats going on, nothings fine Im torn

Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
Im wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
Youre a little late, Im already torn

So I guess the fortune tellers right
Should have seen just what was there and not some holy light
To crawl beneath my veins and now
I dont care, I have no luck, I dont miss it all that much
Theres just so many things that I cant touch, Im torn

Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
Im wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
Youre a little late, Im already torn. torn.

Theres nothing where he used to lie
My inspiration has run dry
Thats whats going on, nothings right, Im torn

Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
Im wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and Im ashamed bound and broken on the floor
Youre a little late, Im already torn

2009-08-22T19:38:00.000-07:00

Well.not very picturey one so seldom take photos..but here's one(above) yesterday went west coast like i wanted..tho not exactly cos i was there alone so yeah..it was a nice sunset,then i had dinner there then going home got a call from one of my pri sch friends want go watch movie(where got ghost) then i reaised that no one was going to be home that day cos my dad going to go help take care of my sis then staying there then my mom in beijing so i went..then cinema there saw someone got caught..his belt was got the brass knuckles then really is part of the design but can take out so weapon then he a first was denying that can take out..then the police twist twist then come out then his face turn 360degrees. So then watch movie..didn't want to go home..wanted to call my dad ask if can go cuz hse sleep then realised i didn't even tell him that i watching at all then say then die so just go to my cuz hse then sleep there..wake up earlier go eat breakfast with him then homed from bishan..sian..should have stayed there longer..then now going back to sleep..wake up must last run for maths then little history..What are we living for?

<一生绝望>

曲/杨波词/梁智强

Verse
我们肆无忌惮我们成群结党
我们目无尊长对什么事都不满
看着我们的成长只会制造麻烦
我们就是一无是处你又能怎样

我们don’t give a damn那看不起的眼光
我们什么都不是我们什么都不管
我们之间为什么会渐渐地没有语言
我们之间有道墙

学校老师束手无策父母臭骂我们不会想
这个社会的标准已经超出了我们这年纪的有限想象
只认定会读书就一定是好孩子的榜样
别以为看不起我们就告诉自己比人家强

有多少人关心我们为何会走错迷失方向
又有谁会替我们想想苹果为何变烂
其实我们也曾努力要争取所有人的称赞
扪心自问你们究竟给了我们多少希望

副歌
泪水已经流干，前途也很渺茫
迷失的灵魂，我们应该怎么办
惩罚我们就是堂皇的协助成长
然后让我们一生绝望

有些人幸运天生没有战场
我们一出世就是自己孤军作战
站在十字路口的风雨中呐喊
不要让我们一生绝望
5566fan

2009-08-20T05:12:00.000-07:00

Found this photo long ago wanted to share it one..some history lesson. Today chiong up after recess to do a surprise,how i know that the surprise was found? the whole other class i heard W00tt then i know liao..dunno why tmr feel like going west coast beach go sit there. will call zk later =D cos i can't rmb how go and he also go home zuo boh one. Do you know what's worth fighting for? Cos im kinda confused..

21guns by Green Day
Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?

Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul

Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

2009-08-19T07:16:00.001-07:00

Well..update? nth much..today was a absouletely horrible day..i seriously dunno if im right? or am i just blinded by ignorance.
Heartaches and Heartbreaks

2009-08-18T00:16:00.000-07:00

Everything i once believed in,all lost. Im tired of it..i really just want it to end..i really can't bear with it for even another day,i hope you'll be just the same with or without me,i think we'll both be happier.Everytime the first thing i think abt is you..the least you could do is pretend you feel the same way..forget it..it's all just another shot to the heart

2009-08-17T03:27:00.000-07:00

Mood:Horribly depressed. Some stuff happened today..dun wanna say or think abt it anymore..then after maths remedial..sian like fuck,then afterwards more stuff happened..then went to find zk again lorh,his hse there become like my second home alrdy,then slacked,ate then walked walked then homed.
Today after maths remedial was raining abit..so i thought of the song,holiday.
Then afterwards thought of this song..
The Reason By Hoobastank

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

2009-08-16T09:26:00.000-07:00

Im still waiting..why is it that whenever i need to talk..like no one there one? like now for example..honestly i havn't been happy this past few weeks at all..i also want to be happy..who doesn't? anyway enough of that..wanted to go ride bike today one..then zk dun want,then wanted to go alone one..then had to go see one of my aunt who on sat went for some surgery..so went to church first..then nth to do,sit there play psp..wondering if there's a god..i really want to believe in something,ANYTHING right now..so then sat there bout nearly 2hours,then went to my aunt hse see my aunt,then went to eat dinner then homed..wondering if i should ton anot..
Something to believe in.

2009-08-15T10:51:00.000-07:00

One more post be4 i sleep,dedicated to KONG THE KING/THE ALIEN/KONG KING/THE GREAT/THE ANYHOW GUESS IN DNT ALSO CAN TIO ZHUN ONE/THE DEADBIRD
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAN,MAY WHATEVER SICK WISHES YOU HAVE COME THROUGH ;D
NC16 MOVIES AND BIRTHDAY BASHES SOMEDAY SOON.

2009-08-15T05:51:00.001-07:00

I was thinking bout like some stuff the whole day..oh yeah,btw,sorry to zk that today cannot make it,cos my mom tmr flying again to beijing,then yeah was thinking bout it for many days alrdy..i rmb that day walking that time i asked zk why he like nvr like any girl one..then he say have but nvr go be with her only..then asked him why that time he like jiao wei alot then finally ask him he say scared xing sui..which means heartbreak,then like kinda true..cos everyone like around him in a relationship nth good came out..and to be honest im doubting happily ever after..can there really be a real like..happy ending?If not then what is everyone trying for? What's the point of giving everything you have only to be heartbroken in the end? Can someone please give me the answers im looking for?
Love,Happy Endings and Heartbroken Tears.

Breathless By Shayne Ward
If our love was a fairy tale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we’d say I do

And if we had babies they would look like you
It’d be so beautiful if that came true
You don’t even know how very special you are

[Chorus]

You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me
Breathless

And if our love was a story book
We would meet on the very first page
The last chapter would be about
How I’m thankful for the life we’ve made

And if we had babies they would have your eyes
I would fall deeper watching you give life
You don’t even know how very special you are

You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me

You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me
You’re like an angel
The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me
You’re something special
I only hope that I’ll one day deserve what you’ve given me
But all I can do is try
Every day of my life

You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me
Breathless

You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me
Breathless

Dedicated To LCH.
ILY.

2009-08-14T08:03:00.001-07:00

Top down in the summer sun
The day we met was like a hit and run
And I still taste it on my tongue
The sky was burning up like fireworks
You made me want you oh so bad it hurt
But girl, in case you haven’t heard

I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
I’ll love you forever
Forever is over
We used to kiss all night
Now it’s just a bar fight
So don’t call me crying
Say hello to goodbye

Cause Just one sip would make me say
I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
Ill love you forever
But now it’s over

Hot sweat and blurry eyes
We’re spinning on a roller coaster ride
The world stuck in black and white
You drove me crazy every time we touched
But now I’m so broken that I can’t get up
Oh girl, you make me such a lush

I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
I’ll love you forever
Forever is over
We used to kiss all night
Now its just a bar fight
So don’t call me crying
Say hello to goodbye

Cause Just one sip would make me say
I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
Ill love you forever
But now it’s over

All the time I wasted on you
All the bullshit you put me through
Checking into rehab is everything that we had
Didn’t mean a thing to you

I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
Ill love you forever
But now it’s over

I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
I’ll love you forever
Forever is over
We used to kiss all night
Now it’s just a bar fight
So don’t call me crying
Say hello to goodbye

Cause Just one sip would make me say
I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
Ill love you forever
But now it’s over

Now it’s over
I still taste it on my tongue

2009-08-14T05:19:00.000-07:00

Soo..today sch same same boring boring..then after that pei ch go jp eat..then send her back for her bio remedial..go back jp again find zk they all..then stay there awhile more went his hse there play bball again =.= third day in a row im going his hse there..then play bball then cycle his bike,then i fell down trying to parkour,wall run,then got one nice cut over a bump pain like fuck,then i left first find ch,sent her home then zhao liao,then went to nap..tired after ton the whole night..round two tonite =D i think i'll die at this rate..
Say Hello To Goodbye~

2009-08-13T03:30:00.000-07:00

Thought of some stuff on the way home..and here i got my findings.
WHAT HAPPENS IF YOU GIVE SOMETHING NEW TO DIFFERENT TYPES OF STUDENTS.
If you give it to a D&T student,they'll touch it all over to try to find out how it works.
If you give it to a AMATHS student,they'll start measuring and weighing it to find the weight,area,volume and use all their formulas.
If you give it to a SCIENCE student,they'll start asking each other and pushing it here and there and see what's inside.
If you give it to a ARTS student,they'll start walking around it to try and find the "light" to draw it properly.
If you give it to a HOME EC student,they'll start smelling and biting it to see if it's edible.
PS:Not fully confirmed.

Anyways..waited 3/4 of the way then went into the class during SS sit there awhile while they singing linkin park songs..=.= then afterwards pei zk yx walk home,go zk hse take swaveboard or smth..then go his hse there play basketball? then went mac slacked awhile,then went to walk lorh..from jurong west mac to the monkey tree past hua yi around one circle then i homed liao..then update..tired..going to go take a nap then pia dun sleep the whole night..=D

2009-08-12T23:55:00.000-07:00

Just realised my last post was my 200th one soo..w00ts? I've been thinking bout stuff..and i've come to the conclusion,my life sucks..LoveDrunk..when will the hangover come? I really don't want to do anything..but every single thing just really makes me almost cannot control myself..only the person im referring to will know..if not you..then who..cos i can't find anyone else..bullet in the head..